While today is an exciting day (Chapter 6 officially begins later today!) my moment of the day came started early (VERY EARLY) today and was repeated this morning. I suppose it's like a prequel to Chapter 6. Yes, yes. I realize that doesn't make a lot of sense, after all, wouldn't the prequel simply be Chapter 5? Right, yes. I suppose it would be. Okay. Let's call this the closing of Chapter 5. This moment being when my parents shared their (individual and combined) impressions of my boyfriend with me. It's the first time we've had a chance to do so post-family BBQ last weekend.
Now, as a side bar, I know that EQ has been eager to hear the feedback, worried about the possibility that he wouldn't be embraced into the family. HA! What a laugh. He's AMAZING. My family is AMAZING. OF COURSE he was accepted into the folds! Still, I understand the need for the words, and I have yet to share them all with him. That will come as we open Chapter 6.
Back to today's moment. Late last night (which was actually early this morning), after my Dad retired to bed, Mom and I sat and chatted about where my life has travelled in the past 6 months. Her first comment: "This is moving fast." My reply, "Yes Mom. It is, but remember, I've known him well for over 2 years. We've were friends first before we ever crossed into the realm of love." She nodded and off we went about how much she enjoyed meeting EQ and that she could see how much he adores me. She asked, "Are you happy?" My answer was quick to surface, "Yes Mom, more than I've ever been." We spoke into the wee hours of the morning before retiring ourselves.
And then, a similar conversation surfaced with my Dad. He is an early riser. I was up early (after a quick call with EQ on his way to work, and yes, I do tend to burn the candles at both ends!), so I joined my Dad on the deck with a cup of coffee. With a twinkle in his eye and a smile that spoke volumes he asked, "Are you excited about your coming trip?" "Yes Dad, very. This is a new chapter in my life about to begin." His reply, "Yes, I can tell that it is. Your mother and I are just so happy to see you so happy." And off we went talking about what the future may bring.
Both conversations were amusingly similar even though they were (obviously) distinct conversations. It warmed me, for my dear sweet love has captured the a piece of my Mom & Dad's hearts. (or so they shared when they each had me alone!) They enjoy talking to him, they were impressed with the video he took the time and energy to put together for my family to enjoy, they were grateful for the little offerings that he's brought to them since their meeting last weekend and they both, they both enjoyed experiencing his music and both, individually, and later together, reminded me that they very much look forward to spending some quality time with just the four of us. (A family BBQ is very busy after all!) All very sweet, warm, loving, supportive words.
And as I left to travel to the start of Chapter 6, Dad's hug and encouraging words goodbye said it all. "You deserve happiness kiddo. Go enjoy it."
Moments feeling the love and support of your family.
Moments knowing that you are on the right path.
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Friday, August 30, 2013
Moments D494: Norm!
Have you ever seen Cheers the TV series? I kinda felt like Norm today as I went to my local salon to be pampered before the long weekend!
As I walked into the salon I was very warmly greeted by the entire team there. The warm welcome also included questions of my well being, what I was up to for the coming long weekend, and a couple of them were wondering if my long distance boyfriend (who they recall being in a hot tub the last time I was in) was going to help me pick out a nail polish colour again.
Yes - I felt the love. My 90 minutes with the team at Five Star Nails was relaxing and entertaining as always. From watching the prima donna beside me file and shape her own nails, to the low key mother and daughter on the other side of me.
It's always good to feel welcomed. It's even better when they remember your name, your favourite colours and where your boyfriend is from!
Moments taking time for pampering.
Moments enjoying where everyone knows your name.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Moments D493: Graduation presents come alive
Today was the day my high school graduate niece and I have been waiting for! Tonight was her graduation present come alive. What better than a graduation CONCERT for a grad present from her (favourite?) aunt!
On tap: Rozzi Crane, Kelly Clarkson, and Maroon 5. What an incredible concert and better yet, what an incredible evening! Rozzi has an incredible soulful voice. And, I'll publicly admit, I'm a Kelly Clarkson convert. She had me when she walked out in a pretty girlie dress and BARE feet. Not only that, she was amazing....very personable and interactive with the crowd. And her voice? Holy smokes. Amazing. I had goosebumps a few times during her performance! Maroon 5 was also fantastic. They were much more grounded and real than I expected them to be. All in all, honestly, one of the best concerts I've been too all year! The concert itself was almost worth the trouble I had getting the tickets.
The payback came because it was all about the evening with my niece. Watching the beaming smile, listening to her sing along to nearly every song. So. Much. Fun. Yes, definitely worth the trouble getting the tickets.
As we left the concert and walked through the CNE grounds, we stopped and picked up a couple of pieces of pizza and shared a drink. What a beautiful night filled with song, dancing, and laughter. It was a night that will always be a special moment in my heart.
Moments celebrating a milestone.
Moments creating a memory for life.
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Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Moments D492: Swirling energies
As the long weekend nears, it's hard not to see summer coming to an end. The days are shorter, school is about to start and work is heavy planning and setting up our fall and Christmas campaigns. A dear friend of mine is suffering in pain and fighting fears. Another feels as though her best isn't good enough. Another readies herself for a solo trip to the Caribbean. There is worry, but there is love. There is fear, but there is light. Yes, there is a lot of energy swirling about me and it's been challenging to keep up with it all and stay centred.
Today, however, I fought through the swirling energies and stayed focused on the tasks at hand. Work was productive. After work went exactly as planned as well. Some days, that's enough to be thankful for. With all the energies swirling about, it's a moment to pause and appreciate the fact that, in the end, my day went exactly as planned.
Moments sheltering oneself from the swirling energies.
Moments realizing that one's plans for the day worked out.
Today, however, I fought through the swirling energies and stayed focused on the tasks at hand. Work was productive. After work went exactly as planned as well. Some days, that's enough to be thankful for. With all the energies swirling about, it's a moment to pause and appreciate the fact that, in the end, my day went exactly as planned.
Moments sheltering oneself from the swirling energies.
Moments realizing that one's plans for the day worked out.
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Moments D491: Hidden Fishing Hole
Today's moment snuck up on me. As I was walking to my last volleyball game of the season, I spied a gentleman fishing. I nearly missed him and walked on by without a second glance as he was very much tucked behind the overgrown summer weeds. I have no idea what kind of fish would be in that little body of water, but there he was none-the-less, looking quite official about it!
Though it was threatening rain, there he sat in his folding chair, smoke in hand with his tackle, cooler and hat casually tossed beside him. He looked relaxed and the scene was calm. Never in the 10+ years that I had be trekking to the beach for volleyball had I seen anyone fishing here. The surprise of the hidden fishing hole delighted me. I paused, took a couple of pictures and then went on my way to my playoff games with a smile on my face.
Moments seeing a new sight.
Moments enjoying a calm relaxing scene.
Monday, August 26, 2013
Moments D490: Support and Love
Today I met up with a special co-worker that recently left the company for lunch. She and I worked together for nearly 12 years. This lovely woman was always very prim and proper in the office, but once you got her outside the office walls, her silly side, her funny side, and her sarcastic side radiated through.
Though she's only been gone a couple of months, I've missed her terribly. She and I worked so well and so easily together. She was like an extension of my brain! Top that off with the fact that she is incredibly funny and I was very happy to be reconnecting with her for lunch.
Unexpectedly, while at lunch my ex-coworker, offered me $50 to donate towards my coming Tough Mudder adventure in September. Tough Mudder is known for supporting Wounded Warrior Project. Part of the reason I jumped on board, was this fact. Tough Mudder has proudly raised over $5 million to support thousands of warriors returning from the battlefield. I wanted to be a part of that. (My grandfather was a vet. This is my small way of thanking him and all those that fight for our freedoms.)
What an incredible moment that was as we discussed the obstacle course and why I was running it. (Yes, it is a hardcore 10-12 mile obstacle courses designed by British Special Forces, with, apparently, some of the toughest obstacles courses out there!)
And then, she bought me lunch and sent me back to the office with treats for the rest of the department. Yes, I think she misses some of us!
A moment to remind me that my stamina, mental grit, camaraderie and all around strength will be tested to the limit with my team mates.
Most importantly, this moment, is dedicated to our warriors. To supporting those that fight for our freedoms.
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Moments D489: Water Fight
Today my brother and his family came over for a visit as they were unable to attend the BBQ yesterday. I was grateful that they made the time to come out because otherwise EQ wouldn't have had a chance to meet my brother, my sister-in-law and my two very beautiful nephews. What a treat he was in for!
After watching the video of my youngest nephew's Karate testing for his purple belt, we sat and watched a few more videos of the boys. From karaoke to sledding in the winter! What fun! The laptop on my lap, both nephews beside me on one side and EQ on the other. What an incredible moment with lots of giggles and full on laughs. But it quickly got much, MUCH better and that trumped this mini moment of the day.
The best moment of the day was when my oldest nephew handed over the laptop to my brother and then looked at me, with a glint in his eye, and said, "I'm going to get my water gun and I'm going to squirt you until you are very wet." WATER FIGHT!!
Well, well, well. Really?
And so, I took off my sunglasses, set aside my pretty straw hat and tied back my hair. I then made my way into the backyard as I watched both my nephews fill their water guns. Before I knew it the three of us were running around the yard hooting and hollering. Then my Mom handed me a water bottle. It didn't have quite the range of the water guns, but it certainly helped my stand against the two boys!
And then, something magical happened. EQ joined in on the water fight. The boys chasing him, all of them ganging up on me, and then my nephews and I ganging up on EQ. So much fun! And boy, oh boy what a water fight it was! I wonder what the neighbours thought at all the hoopla! By the end of it all, each of us was completely soaked. So much so that all our clothes (undies included) needed to be put into the dryer before we could sit and eat dinner. Such silly fun. What a way to warm one's soul!
It was a perfect way to spend some quality time with my nephews and for them to really engage with my boyfriend. In the end, I think he passed in their young eyes too as they both gave him a hug when they left later that evening.
Moments enjoying playtime with one's nephews.
Moments being surprised and falling a little more in love with your boyfriend.
After watching the video of my youngest nephew's Karate testing for his purple belt, we sat and watched a few more videos of the boys. From karaoke to sledding in the winter! What fun! The laptop on my lap, both nephews beside me on one side and EQ on the other. What an incredible moment with lots of giggles and full on laughs. But it quickly got much, MUCH better and that trumped this mini moment of the day.
The best moment of the day was when my oldest nephew handed over the laptop to my brother and then looked at me, with a glint in his eye, and said, "I'm going to get my water gun and I'm going to squirt you until you are very wet." WATER FIGHT!!
Well, well, well. Really?
And so, I took off my sunglasses, set aside my pretty straw hat and tied back my hair. I then made my way into the backyard as I watched both my nephews fill their water guns. Before I knew it the three of us were running around the yard hooting and hollering. Then my Mom handed me a water bottle. It didn't have quite the range of the water guns, but it certainly helped my stand against the two boys!
And then, something magical happened. EQ joined in on the water fight. The boys chasing him, all of them ganging up on me, and then my nephews and I ganging up on EQ. So much fun! And boy, oh boy what a water fight it was! I wonder what the neighbours thought at all the hoopla! By the end of it all, each of us was completely soaked. So much so that all our clothes (undies included) needed to be put into the dryer before we could sit and eat dinner. Such silly fun. What a way to warm one's soul!
It was a perfect way to spend some quality time with my nephews and for them to really engage with my boyfriend. In the end, I think he passed in their young eyes too as they both gave him a hug when they left later that evening.
Moments enjoying playtime with one's nephews.
Moments being surprised and falling a little more in love with your boyfriend.
Saturday, August 24, 2013
Moments D488: Circles Entwine
Today was an extra special day. It was a day where my circles really entwined. Today was the family BBQ and there were a few present from both sides of my family. A special occasion that my family has once a year (or at least we try to), my dear sweet EQ rearranged his schedule so that he could join us.
Yes. That's right. He chose to meet my entire family in one fell swoop. Crazy? Yes maybe, but that's one of the things that I love about him. He makes it plenty clear what is important to him. Making time to meet my family, even if it was going to be (possibly) overwhelming, was important to him.
We also had another guest to the family table: my bestie from Haliburton. Sure, she's "chatted" with my Mom before, but never have they met. Neither has Hawk met EQ or the rest of my high energy family. (Yes, that's a nice way of saying rambunctious! If I do say so myself, we are a happy, fun family though!) I'm not sure Hawk was ready for the day ahead, but I think, in the end, I hope she enjoyed it as much as she said she did.
After a lazy morning with my parents (coffee on the deck and later breakfast), we were off to the Whirlpool Jet Boating adventure with 6 others in my family. What an incredible time we had, filled with laughs, soggie smiles and screams of delight. (I'm assuming they were all in delight - my screams were!)
As the day moved on, I could see Hawk fitting in with my family. Notably with my younger cousins as a blueberry fight erupted. By the end of the day, I was no longer worried about whether or not Hawk was comfortable in the group. She most certainly was.
More importantly, was the very obvious opening up of my Mom & Dad to EQ. Where they were reserved and observing last night upon arrival, they were now fully engaged and swapping stories back and forth. I enjoyed watching it unfold. I also saw that others in my extended family were warm and accepting of EQ. In fact, I had my dead Nana's approval (via my Aunt), my Aunt and my 15 year old niece's approval before they even left the BBQ. (I'm sure there are only more to positive comments to come.) It warmed my heart for it was, no, it is, important for EQ to fit into my family, for I love my family deeply. It's just as important that they fit into his world and needs of a family.
This, by far, was the best moment of the day. Realizing that EQ fit. Not only does he fit with me (so very much!), he fit, very well, with my family. Beautiful. After he and I downloaded the day's events this evening, it was pretty clear that he too enjoyed my family. Bangarang! Worlds didn't collide - they entwined. I couldn't have asked for more.
All was well in the world of my family meeting my bestie and the man I love.
Moments holding your breath.
Moments realizing that it was unnecessary.
Yes. That's right. He chose to meet my entire family in one fell swoop. Crazy? Yes maybe, but that's one of the things that I love about him. He makes it plenty clear what is important to him. Making time to meet my family, even if it was going to be (possibly) overwhelming, was important to him.
We also had another guest to the family table: my bestie from Haliburton. Sure, she's "chatted" with my Mom before, but never have they met. Neither has Hawk met EQ or the rest of my high energy family. (Yes, that's a nice way of saying rambunctious! If I do say so myself, we are a happy, fun family though!) I'm not sure Hawk was ready for the day ahead, but I think, in the end, I hope she enjoyed it as much as she said she did.
After a lazy morning with my parents (coffee on the deck and later breakfast), we were off to the Whirlpool Jet Boating adventure with 6 others in my family. What an incredible time we had, filled with laughs, soggie smiles and screams of delight. (I'm assuming they were all in delight - my screams were!)
As the day moved on, I could see Hawk fitting in with my family. Notably with my younger cousins as a blueberry fight erupted. By the end of the day, I was no longer worried about whether or not Hawk was comfortable in the group. She most certainly was.
More importantly, was the very obvious opening up of my Mom & Dad to EQ. Where they were reserved and observing last night upon arrival, they were now fully engaged and swapping stories back and forth. I enjoyed watching it unfold. I also saw that others in my extended family were warm and accepting of EQ. In fact, I had my dead Nana's approval (via my Aunt), my Aunt and my 15 year old niece's approval before they even left the BBQ. (I'm sure there are only more to positive comments to come.) It warmed my heart for it was, no, it is, important for EQ to fit into my family, for I love my family deeply. It's just as important that they fit into his world and needs of a family.
This, by far, was the best moment of the day. Realizing that EQ fit. Not only does he fit with me (so very much!), he fit, very well, with my family. Beautiful. After he and I downloaded the day's events this evening, it was pretty clear that he too enjoyed my family. Bangarang! Worlds didn't collide - they entwined. I couldn't have asked for more.
All was well in the world of my family meeting my bestie and the man I love.
Moments holding your breath.
Moments realizing that it was unnecessary.
Friday, August 23, 2013
Moments D487: Old Haunts
Today was a very special day because my bestie from Haliburton came down to visit. Not only was Hawk down to visit me, she was also headed home-home to Welland to spend the weekend with my family and was going to meet the man I love. What an exciting weekend planned!
Today's moment, however, was dinner with Hawk at Fusilli, an area favourite and one that Hawk and I once frequented quite often. Giuseppe, the owner, was very excited to see Hawk again and he sat with us for awhile as we enjoyed our first glass of wine and appetizer. We also did a round of photos. Giuseppe and I, Giuseppe and Hawk, Hawk and I. It was all quite amusing and silly. So much fun with many laughs, tasty dinner and delightful company. Giuseppe was so happy to see us that he even gave us a complimentary cappuccino, which, in the end, with terrible traffic, made us late into Welland. (EQ arrived before us!) Still, it's hard to say no to such hospitality!
So today's moment is celebrating old haunts with an old dear friend. A great way to start a very exciting, life changing weekend.
Moments with friends and food.
Moments eager to start the weekend.
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Moments D486: Heini's Birthday
It's official. We have a new tradition for Heini's birthday!
Today, obviously, is Heini's birthday. Tonight, as we have in many years past, Heini, her OBFF and I went out for dinner. This year, not only did we repeat the restaurant, we sat at the exact same table. I do believe this is a new tradition in the making! Libretto has (arguably) the best pizza in the city. (I personally feel that Queen Margherita Pizza holds that title, but who's to argue with the birthday girl? After all, she is a connoisseur of Margherita pizzas!)
Two moments of our evening filled with incredible food, a swap of life changing stories and the celebration of Heini come to mind and it's these that I will share with you as today's moment.
The first, we always get Heini a little something for her special day even though she always insists on no presents. Personally, I can't help myself. She collects pig "stuff" and all year round I see cute pig related items and I inevitably pick something up for her. It's always silly, but it also, always brings a smile. (Isn't that the point of celebrating a friend's birthday? Smiles & love?) Tonight as I handed her the gift bag, she felt it. Then she saw it. Squeals of delight ensued as she pulled the fluffy pink fur from the bag. "Piggy" (yet to be named) was the star of our evening, second only to, of course, the birthday girl! "Piggy" sat at the table with us for the entire time!
And then OBFF handed Heini a bag 'o cupcakes. More squeals and a decision made that we would skip dessert at the restaurant in lieu of enjoying the cupcakes. Fast forward post meal. We were outside, thinking of a nearby park to visit to sit and enjoy the cupcakes. Instead we decide to use the hood of my car as a table!
What silly moment that was. We had passerbys look at us like we were crazy! Our reaction? We giggled. We weren't sure if it was the sight of watching three "mature" women eating cupcakes from the hood of a car, or that "Piggy" was sitting beside the cupcakes. No matter why, we loved that it made people stop and look and laugh. We were happy to share the moment and a smile.
"Piggy" was also the star of this moment. Check it out!
Today, obviously, is Heini's birthday. Tonight, as we have in many years past, Heini, her OBFF and I went out for dinner. This year, not only did we repeat the restaurant, we sat at the exact same table. I do believe this is a new tradition in the making! Libretto has (arguably) the best pizza in the city. (I personally feel that Queen Margherita Pizza holds that title, but who's to argue with the birthday girl? After all, she is a connoisseur of Margherita pizzas!)
Two moments of our evening filled with incredible food, a swap of life changing stories and the celebration of Heini come to mind and it's these that I will share with you as today's moment.
The first, we always get Heini a little something for her special day even though she always insists on no presents. Personally, I can't help myself. She collects pig "stuff" and all year round I see cute pig related items and I inevitably pick something up for her. It's always silly, but it also, always brings a smile. (Isn't that the point of celebrating a friend's birthday? Smiles & love?) Tonight as I handed her the gift bag, she felt it. Then she saw it. Squeals of delight ensued as she pulled the fluffy pink fur from the bag. "Piggy" (yet to be named) was the star of our evening, second only to, of course, the birthday girl! "Piggy" sat at the table with us for the entire time!
And then OBFF handed Heini a bag 'o cupcakes. More squeals and a decision made that we would skip dessert at the restaurant in lieu of enjoying the cupcakes. Fast forward post meal. We were outside, thinking of a nearby park to visit to sit and enjoy the cupcakes. Instead we decide to use the hood of my car as a table!
What silly moment that was. We had passerbys look at us like we were crazy! Our reaction? We giggled. We weren't sure if it was the sight of watching three "mature" women eating cupcakes from the hood of a car, or that "Piggy" was sitting beside the cupcakes. No matter why, we loved that it made people stop and look and laugh. We were happy to share the moment and a smile.
"Piggy" was also the star of this moment. Check it out!
Moments being completely silly!
Moments sharing in the radiant energy of birthday love.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Moments D485: Beyond the Boundaries
Before I share my day's moment, I want to share an interesting coincidence (?) with you. I find it interesting that today's blog is entry 555. Interesting because it is a repeated number and because fives are all about being energetic, daring, social, and courageous. That's pretty fitting because today's moment is finding courage - I stepped pretty far outside my boundaries today.
Digging a little deeper, when you adding the all the numbers together, it becomes a 6, a harmonious, loving, caring number. Also pretty fitting given that the boundary pushed was for celebrating a birthday of a loved one. A birthday age that, oddly, also adds up to a 6! (The things we do to push beyond for those we love!!)
Now, this doesn't mean I believe in the numerological significance of 555, but it's hard to miss the connected dots!
So back to my moment. Today's moment is one sharing a project that I've been working on for over a month. It was a birthday present like none other that I've ever considered creating before. Let me explain.
I love to sing. That being said, I do not love to share my singing with the world. Why? Well, it's not my forte, and it makes me DAMN uncomfortable. Ya ya, for those who know me, you know I've done some Karaoke with friends, in a room and I've played Rock Band in my home. What you might not know is that, once upon a time, I have also stood in front of a small audience at my high school graduation and in front of some drunk university students at battle of the bands competition and sang a tune (or three) to them. Very nerve wracking and uncomfortable.
And yet, for this project, for this unique birthday present, I decided to sing a couple of songs and record them. The catch? The receiver has worked in the music industry. Done very well in the music industry. What the hell was I thinking? Talk about amping up the worry-factor! That being said, I knew, no matter what the quality (goodly or badly), the gift would be well received. Even now, as I share this moment, I am surprised that I found the courage to go through with it, but I knew, deep down I knew just how meaningful this present would be. That being said, being who I am, I still wanted perfection.
Laughable! Not with the "equipment" I have, nor with and my "ability". It simply wasn't going to happen. I did, however, pour a lot of love and energy into the two songs I sang, recorded and edited together. (Do I call these covers? I suppose so, though it wasn't really like that, more like a karaoke rendition recorded.) I knew they were heartfelt and meaningful songs. The end result: I knew that they were okay (maybe even a touch better than okay) and that the songs themselves would speak louder than any words or other gift that I could offer.
Regardless, when the time came to hit send, I was a nervous wreck! And the horror of it? I watched, via Skype as the songs were first played for the birthday boy. (I was not expecting this, nor was I prepared for this!) I must have passed through 10+ shades of red sitting there watching and listening. And two words gave me confidence to watch and experience along with the birthday boy. "Don't hide."
What an incredible moment it was to watch his face as he listened to the songs. The emotions that crossed his beautiful face. The sharing of "goosebumps and tears". Success! He felt the love and I pushed through my fear. Brilliant! A perfectly brilliant, high vibration moment.
Moments finding courage and pushing through.
Moments sharing love.
Digging a little deeper, when you adding the all the numbers together, it becomes a 6, a harmonious, loving, caring number. Also pretty fitting given that the boundary pushed was for celebrating a birthday of a loved one. A birthday age that, oddly, also adds up to a 6! (The things we do to push beyond for those we love!!)
Now, this doesn't mean I believe in the numerological significance of 555, but it's hard to miss the connected dots!
So back to my moment. Today's moment is one sharing a project that I've been working on for over a month. It was a birthday present like none other that I've ever considered creating before. Let me explain.
I love to sing. That being said, I do not love to share my singing with the world. Why? Well, it's not my forte, and it makes me DAMN uncomfortable. Ya ya, for those who know me, you know I've done some Karaoke with friends, in a room and I've played Rock Band in my home. What you might not know is that, once upon a time, I have also stood in front of a small audience at my high school graduation and in front of some drunk university students at battle of the bands competition and sang a tune (or three) to them. Very nerve wracking and uncomfortable.
And yet, for this project, for this unique birthday present, I decided to sing a couple of songs and record them. The catch? The receiver has worked in the music industry. Done very well in the music industry. What the hell was I thinking? Talk about amping up the worry-factor! That being said, I knew, no matter what the quality (goodly or badly), the gift would be well received. Even now, as I share this moment, I am surprised that I found the courage to go through with it, but I knew, deep down I knew just how meaningful this present would be. That being said, being who I am, I still wanted perfection.
Laughable! Not with the "equipment" I have, nor with and my "ability". It simply wasn't going to happen. I did, however, pour a lot of love and energy into the two songs I sang, recorded and edited together. (Do I call these covers? I suppose so, though it wasn't really like that, more like a karaoke rendition recorded.) I knew they were heartfelt and meaningful songs. The end result: I knew that they were okay (maybe even a touch better than okay) and that the songs themselves would speak louder than any words or other gift that I could offer.
Regardless, when the time came to hit send, I was a nervous wreck! And the horror of it? I watched, via Skype as the songs were first played for the birthday boy. (I was not expecting this, nor was I prepared for this!) I must have passed through 10+ shades of red sitting there watching and listening. And two words gave me confidence to watch and experience along with the birthday boy. "Don't hide."
What an incredible moment it was to watch his face as he listened to the songs. The emotions that crossed his beautiful face. The sharing of "goosebumps and tears". Success! He felt the love and I pushed through my fear. Brilliant! A perfectly brilliant, high vibration moment.
Moments finding courage and pushing through.
Moments sharing love.
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Moments D484: Convertible of Singing Kids
This morning as I put out my recycling and compost, I spied a very fun moment that made me smile and followed me through the day. It reminds me that while we live in a world where the humdrum of life can pull us down, we have a choice to inject love and light into moments when and where we can.
As I was dropping off my refuse curbside, a convertible with a Dad and two very cute blond girls in the back seat slowed on the street to say hi to a contractor getting out of his truck. Both of the girls were singing at the top of their lungs to tunes that Dad had blaring. Huge smiles were upon the three arriving faces and the contractor quickly joined the ranks with a huge smile of his own.
Dad turned down the tunes as he said hello to the contractor. The girls quickly followed suit in very bright, eager voices. (If I had to guess, the contractor was their Uncle.) They all had a couple of laughs and then Dad looked back at the girls and said that it was time to go because "...who's got to make money today?" And the girls chimed back, "...YOU do Daddy. Time for work." They all waved at that contractor and in a blink the tunes were blaring again and the girls were loudly singing along as the convertible drove off.
The scene brought a smile to me too.
And as I walked past the contractor I said to him, "...there is a happy bunch." His reply, "Yes. I love those kids. Lots of fun." And then we exchanged good day pleasantries and we went about our day.
Moments with strangers.
Moments realizing that we're not such strangers after all.
As I was dropping off my refuse curbside, a convertible with a Dad and two very cute blond girls in the back seat slowed on the street to say hi to a contractor getting out of his truck. Both of the girls were singing at the top of their lungs to tunes that Dad had blaring. Huge smiles were upon the three arriving faces and the contractor quickly joined the ranks with a huge smile of his own.
Dad turned down the tunes as he said hello to the contractor. The girls quickly followed suit in very bright, eager voices. (If I had to guess, the contractor was their Uncle.) They all had a couple of laughs and then Dad looked back at the girls and said that it was time to go because "...who's got to make money today?" And the girls chimed back, "...YOU do Daddy. Time for work." They all waved at that contractor and in a blink the tunes were blaring again and the girls were loudly singing along as the convertible drove off.
The scene brought a smile to me too.
And as I walked past the contractor I said to him, "...there is a happy bunch." His reply, "Yes. I love those kids. Lots of fun." And then we exchanged good day pleasantries and we went about our day.
Moments with strangers.
Moments realizing that we're not such strangers after all.
Monday, August 19, 2013
Moments D483: Hard Earned Thank Yous
Today was a pretty "plain Jane" kinda day. That's okay, they can't all be amazing. Having "plain Jane" days allows for those amazing days to be all that more amazing.
Anyhooooo.....
Today I share in Heini's moment. It really is the most inspiring moment of my day. Not only does it warm my heart, it renews my faith in the corporate world. (After my class this past summer on power, technology and change, I've seen a whole new side to the corporate world and one that is not so shiny!)
Heini has been working a lot of overtime as her office is short handed. She's gone above and beyond for her employer, nearing the point of exhaustion and being only immersed in work for a few weeks. That's a tough gig to keep running. It's isolating, it's depressing and it's exhausting. She and I have talked often of being better at maintaining a better work-life balance. And yet, she persevered through the tough times and did it all with a smile.
Well, today that love and energy was reflected back to her. All her hard work was recognized and celebrated. Her employer is going to send her away to the Caribbean for her birthday. Yes. You read that correctly. She'll be heading out on an airplane, away from the hub-bub, to rest and relax upon the white sands of the Caribbean as a reward.
Wow. Amazing right? What an incredible thank you gift.
Moments enjoying the high from one of your best friend's moments.
Moments of renewed faith.
Anyhooooo.....
Today I share in Heini's moment. It really is the most inspiring moment of my day. Not only does it warm my heart, it renews my faith in the corporate world. (After my class this past summer on power, technology and change, I've seen a whole new side to the corporate world and one that is not so shiny!)
Heini has been working a lot of overtime as her office is short handed. She's gone above and beyond for her employer, nearing the point of exhaustion and being only immersed in work for a few weeks. That's a tough gig to keep running. It's isolating, it's depressing and it's exhausting. She and I have talked often of being better at maintaining a better work-life balance. And yet, she persevered through the tough times and did it all with a smile.
Well, today that love and energy was reflected back to her. All her hard work was recognized and celebrated. Her employer is going to send her away to the Caribbean for her birthday. Yes. You read that correctly. She'll be heading out on an airplane, away from the hub-bub, to rest and relax upon the white sands of the Caribbean as a reward.
Wow. Amazing right? What an incredible thank you gift.
Moments enjoying the high from one of your best friend's moments.
Moments of renewed faith.
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Moments D482: Slow and steady
I had a lot of plans for today. A project, a workout, another project, groceries, cleaning up, etc. I woke up later than normal, which was a lovely treat. Where I would normally jump out of bed and dive into my list of "to do's", I, instead, stayed in bed and sat reading for a good hour or so.
Fortunately it was still pretty early by the time I did jump out of bed. First thing I did was check off my workout. (What a workout it was too - nearly 2 hours later!) After puttering and tidying up around my apartment, it was time to get myself some lunch, which meant getting groceries.
I shopped slowly today. I was in no rush. I had no list. I walked up and down all the isles. (This is something I love to do when I have time!) Once home I made myself lunch and instead of eating it while working on one of my projects at the dining room table, I decided to sit my lazy-feeling-butt down on the couch and watch an episode of Sons of Anarchy. What a treat. Sunday afternoon, watching TV.
I then decided to make my way outside to enjoy the last hours of the beautiful summer sunshine. I worked on a couple of things from my to do list: had a chat with my boyfriend, browsed all BFF's skydiving pictures, I made myself a big tasty Indian dinner with plenty of leftovers for lunch tomorrow, and sent out my own fundraising request to my peeps for my coming Tough Mudder event. (Total sidebar, BUT, by the end of the day, I've already seen some funds come in for the Wounded Warriors Project! I hope I can keep the funds coming in as it's an amazing cause to support. One of the reasons I signed up for this crazy event in the first place!)
Slowly and steadily I checked things off my list. And the upside: I wasn't stressed about the pieces that I didn't get done today. (I do have a couple of things that I will need to work on tomorrow night after work but I look forward to it!) It ended up being a lazier productive day. Not bad.
All in all a lovely day, but the moment, was the fact that it was all slow and steady and not a frantic (and typical) pace. A perfect Sunday. Well, a mostly perfect Sunday, there was only one thing missing, but that will come with time.
Moments being productive at a slower pace.
Moments enjoying the slower pace (and not just being frustrated by it!)
Fortunately it was still pretty early by the time I did jump out of bed. First thing I did was check off my workout. (What a workout it was too - nearly 2 hours later!) After puttering and tidying up around my apartment, it was time to get myself some lunch, which meant getting groceries.
I shopped slowly today. I was in no rush. I had no list. I walked up and down all the isles. (This is something I love to do when I have time!) Once home I made myself lunch and instead of eating it while working on one of my projects at the dining room table, I decided to sit my lazy-feeling-butt down on the couch and watch an episode of Sons of Anarchy. What a treat. Sunday afternoon, watching TV.
I then decided to make my way outside to enjoy the last hours of the beautiful summer sunshine. I worked on a couple of things from my to do list: had a chat with my boyfriend, browsed all BFF's skydiving pictures, I made myself a big tasty Indian dinner with plenty of leftovers for lunch tomorrow, and sent out my own fundraising request to my peeps for my coming Tough Mudder event. (Total sidebar, BUT, by the end of the day, I've already seen some funds come in for the Wounded Warriors Project! I hope I can keep the funds coming in as it's an amazing cause to support. One of the reasons I signed up for this crazy event in the first place!)
Slowly and steadily I checked things off my list. And the upside: I wasn't stressed about the pieces that I didn't get done today. (I do have a couple of things that I will need to work on tomorrow night after work but I look forward to it!) It ended up being a lazier productive day. Not bad.
All in all a lovely day, but the moment, was the fact that it was all slow and steady and not a frantic (and typical) pace. A perfect Sunday. Well, a mostly perfect Sunday, there was only one thing missing, but that will come with time.
Moments being productive at a slower pace.
Moments enjoying the slower pace (and not just being frustrated by it!)
Saturday, August 17, 2013
Moments D481: Stretching for charity
Today BFF jumped out of a perfectly good air plane this morning, not just to check if off her bucket list. She was inspired to do so for a great fund raising cause - ALS. (Documented well here.) One of BFF's dearest friends' father is fighting the disease every day. BFF has seen just how hard this disease is on the family and of course for her friend's father.
Top that off with the fact that BFF has had her own struggles this year. Too many and too personal to share, but suffice it to say that this fundraising event was a big stretch for her and she did it with the smile and grace that a best friend does for her friend and her family. This is her way of giving back.
BFF not only met her fundraising goal, but she was also a great spokesperson for the cause as she spoke on camera about why she was supporting the PALS skydive.
It was a such beautiful moment to watch her in her element (talking to the committee and people on the drop zone) and it was a beautiful moment to watch her stretch beyond her fears to let go and float her way back down to earth. Her selflessness to the every end of the event. Brilliant!
Moments appreciating the dedication and hard work of all the volunteers.
Moments being inspired by the selflessness of BFF.
Friday, August 16, 2013
Moments D480: Switch it Up
Today was one of those days where things didn't turn out as they were planned. But as the plans shifted, so did I. Over the past year I've become a little better at going with the flow and shifting plans as needed. Today, as I drove to Newmarket instead of driving home and working on a birthday project, I reflected upon this shift.
Why is it that it was so easy for me today?
In the past, I tended to really own my plans and I would feel like I have failed when things fall through. The shift comes because I have started to change as a person in that I realize one really can't control everything. And that's okay. I realize that it's okay to let life happen to you (sometimes). The driven side of me fears becoming like the zombie people I know always letting life happen to them. I'm more aware now, that it doesn't have to be all or nothing, that sometimes, it's easier and makes more sense to just let things organically happen.
That means that I'm really okay with switching it up now more than ever. (I'm not just pretending to be okay about it!) Today's switch up didn't even phase me. There was no negative energy, there was no panic, nor any regret. Today the switch up was easy! I even smiled at the opportunity to do something else just as important to me.
Bangarang.
It just goes to show that with a little awareness and patience old dogs really can learn new tricks.
Moments realizing you've grown as a person.
Moments going with the flow.
Why is it that it was so easy for me today?
In the past, I tended to really own my plans and I would feel like I have failed when things fall through. The shift comes because I have started to change as a person in that I realize one really can't control everything. And that's okay. I realize that it's okay to let life happen to you (sometimes). The driven side of me fears becoming like the zombie people I know always letting life happen to them. I'm more aware now, that it doesn't have to be all or nothing, that sometimes, it's easier and makes more sense to just let things organically happen.
That means that I'm really okay with switching it up now more than ever. (I'm not just pretending to be okay about it!) Today's switch up didn't even phase me. There was no negative energy, there was no panic, nor any regret. Today the switch up was easy! I even smiled at the opportunity to do something else just as important to me.
Bangarang.
It just goes to show that with a little awareness and patience old dogs really can learn new tricks.
Moments realizing you've grown as a person.
Moments going with the flow.
Thursday, August 15, 2013
Moments D479: Motivation
Today's moment was inspired by motivation first thing this morning. Throughout the day, this theme seemed to follow me. And so, I'll share a few moments that came to me today based on motivation.
First thing this morning I pulled on my NEW size 4 jeans. Yup. That's right. Size 4. Now, for some that may seem insignificant. For me, it is kind of amazing considering 2.5 years ago I was busting out of size 12 jeans. It was January 2011 that I decided that I wasn't care of my health and that something had to be done about it. I was about 40lbs overweight, puffing after climbing two flights of stairs and incredibly unhappy. I spent the next 3-4 months working very (very) hard to get myself back into shape. I wasn't focused on shedding the weight, for me it was more about getting back into shape and being active. It was about eating more healthy and less processed foods. Both brought me to this point. Now 2.5 years later I am training for Tough Mudder and I couldn't be more motivated for building my strength and maintaining my health. Slipping into a size 4 jean this morning = great motivation to keep up the good (hard) work.
Later on today, I found myself cheering on Heini. After a challenging week of work, she found herself feeling isolated and challenged to find the positive around her. After a brief back and forth, she was feeling better, inspired and ready to tackle the last day of the week. I love helping to pick-up my peeps and make them feel a little better. When I hear that I've made a difference, it gives me ever more motivation to keep sharing my light and love.
Finally, my boyfriend had some challenging news come his way today too. Instead of processing things in the same typical way, he decided to try a new approach, one inspired by our new relationship. As he shared this with me, I was a overwhelmed by the feeling of purpose and of connection. Incredible. Knowing that he soared through the news with a warmth in his heart, filled my own heart. I find myself motivated to give more and share all that I can. Isn't that really what life is about? Sharing with those you love?
Today life is better having this sense of motivation floating around me. It brings a sense of purpose. A sense of direction. By investing time in yourself, and investing time in those you love, it all comes round again in the end. Definitely worth the energy.
Moments celebrating milestones.
Moments sharing your light to help motivate others.
First thing this morning I pulled on my NEW size 4 jeans. Yup. That's right. Size 4. Now, for some that may seem insignificant. For me, it is kind of amazing considering 2.5 years ago I was busting out of size 12 jeans. It was January 2011 that I decided that I wasn't care of my health and that something had to be done about it. I was about 40lbs overweight, puffing after climbing two flights of stairs and incredibly unhappy. I spent the next 3-4 months working very (very) hard to get myself back into shape. I wasn't focused on shedding the weight, for me it was more about getting back into shape and being active. It was about eating more healthy and less processed foods. Both brought me to this point. Now 2.5 years later I am training for Tough Mudder and I couldn't be more motivated for building my strength and maintaining my health. Slipping into a size 4 jean this morning = great motivation to keep up the good (hard) work.
Later on today, I found myself cheering on Heini. After a challenging week of work, she found herself feeling isolated and challenged to find the positive around her. After a brief back and forth, she was feeling better, inspired and ready to tackle the last day of the week. I love helping to pick-up my peeps and make them feel a little better. When I hear that I've made a difference, it gives me ever more motivation to keep sharing my light and love.
Finally, my boyfriend had some challenging news come his way today too. Instead of processing things in the same typical way, he decided to try a new approach, one inspired by our new relationship. As he shared this with me, I was a overwhelmed by the feeling of purpose and of connection. Incredible. Knowing that he soared through the news with a warmth in his heart, filled my own heart. I find myself motivated to give more and share all that I can. Isn't that really what life is about? Sharing with those you love?
Today life is better having this sense of motivation floating around me. It brings a sense of purpose. A sense of direction. By investing time in yourself, and investing time in those you love, it all comes round again in the end. Definitely worth the energy.
Moments celebrating milestones.
Moments sharing your light to help motivate others.
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Moments D478: Enveloped in Love
Today was a challenging day, after all, returning from vacation is never easy with a pile on your desk to greet you. Today was no different even though it was only 2 days out of the office - much had transpired while I was away.
Without going into the specifics, suffice it to say that it was a lot. A lot to process, a lot to understand and a lot to dig more deeply into. I'll get through it, I always do, but that doesn't mean that I didn't feel beaten up today because of it.
But you know what happened? My beautiful support group swooped in to help carry the burden and allow me the ability to vent, to process, to see other perspectives. Arizona gave me much needed hugs, Mr. Ray of Light has promised to help out with the logistics and research that is needed, BFF sent much love & light to help push me through the day and remind me that I will get through it all, my parents offered up an interesting perspective (or two) as did my sweet EQ.
So much love and support in a blink of a day. I am very fortunate to have the support system I have. It made today that much more bearable. Everything will be okay. I believe.
Moments processing unexpected information.
Moments leaning into the support of your loved ones and finding peace.
Without going into the specifics, suffice it to say that it was a lot. A lot to process, a lot to understand and a lot to dig more deeply into. I'll get through it, I always do, but that doesn't mean that I didn't feel beaten up today because of it.
But you know what happened? My beautiful support group swooped in to help carry the burden and allow me the ability to vent, to process, to see other perspectives. Arizona gave me much needed hugs, Mr. Ray of Light has promised to help out with the logistics and research that is needed, BFF sent much love & light to help push me through the day and remind me that I will get through it all, my parents offered up an interesting perspective (or two) as did my sweet EQ.
So much love and support in a blink of a day. I am very fortunate to have the support system I have. It made today that much more bearable. Everything will be okay. I believe.
Moments processing unexpected information.
Moments leaning into the support of your loved ones and finding peace.
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Moments D477: Extending Moments
Today felt like such a short day! A travel day home, we decided to extend our time in the hotel with a late checkout so we could enjoy some quiet time together before rushing to the airport. This gave us the luxury of time to chat about our coming adventures. Before long we were off to the airport to head in separate directions.
And then the (seemingly) theme of today of extending moments continued. A flight cancelled turned into more time to be together at the airport. Fantastic news even though it meant a bit of shuffling around of arrival plans back home. (A hassle no one wants, but it did give us more time together on our travel day, so who's complaining?)
We spent the time in a cute pub that served "only real food". (Which is interesting since the food was served in either plastic containers or Styrofoam plates!) While we were sharing this extra time together, the waitress became quite enamoured with us, even though, at first, it felt like maybe we were challenging her too much. Let me explain:
Upon her asking us for our orders, she had to deal with special dietary requests. Breakfast was on the menu and was what was being eyed. Our waitress was quick to point out that the menu stated that they only served breakfast to 11am. Deadpan. No budging. No laughter. And so, we injected some laughter. We pulled that moment back into the fun side of things and moved beyond the breakfast request. I think she rather enjoyed the banter because she checked in on us frequently (but not too much) and shared a few stories with us along the way. One in particular is a moment that EQ believes would never have happened without me being there. I'm not sure I believe that entirely given that he was the one that enticed the story from our Catholic-school-raised waitress.
In a way, we extended our moment with the waitress beyond her providing us a service and we saw a slice of her private life. It was quite a moment to share today as I love to learn about strangers, their lives and how they perceive things. It's always an interesting exercise and today I had the opportunity to do this with my man.
So what did we learn? Well, our waitress has two cats. One is quite finicky with his food, the other quite normal with her choice of food. (yes, she had a brother and sister cat). The finicky cat is also quite intimidated by her big, tall, deep voiced boyfriend. And we learned that the food from a special pet store is really the only food that Mr. Finicky would eat. Interesting in its own right. But then, EQ posed the question: "Have you ever tasted the food you feed your cats? I have." And with that, we started down a whole new path of stories. Tales of tasting dog treats versus cat kibble versus wet cat food. (I'll admit openly that I tested a dog bone and kibble when I was a kid, but wet food? EEEEKS, no way!)
What could have been a simple story about her pet cats turned into a fun and silly conversation that went a little deeper beneath the surface. It was a shared set of stories that brought all three of us laughter and smiles. All born out of an extended moment together because a flight was cancelled.
Cool butterfly effect sometimes.
Moments that are extended beyond expectations.
Moments getting to know interesting tidbits of strangers.
And then the (seemingly) theme of today of extending moments continued. A flight cancelled turned into more time to be together at the airport. Fantastic news even though it meant a bit of shuffling around of arrival plans back home. (A hassle no one wants, but it did give us more time together on our travel day, so who's complaining?)
We spent the time in a cute pub that served "only real food". (Which is interesting since the food was served in either plastic containers or Styrofoam plates!) While we were sharing this extra time together, the waitress became quite enamoured with us, even though, at first, it felt like maybe we were challenging her too much. Let me explain:
Upon her asking us for our orders, she had to deal with special dietary requests. Breakfast was on the menu and was what was being eyed. Our waitress was quick to point out that the menu stated that they only served breakfast to 11am. Deadpan. No budging. No laughter. And so, we injected some laughter. We pulled that moment back into the fun side of things and moved beyond the breakfast request. I think she rather enjoyed the banter because she checked in on us frequently (but not too much) and shared a few stories with us along the way. One in particular is a moment that EQ believes would never have happened without me being there. I'm not sure I believe that entirely given that he was the one that enticed the story from our Catholic-school-raised waitress.
In a way, we extended our moment with the waitress beyond her providing us a service and we saw a slice of her private life. It was quite a moment to share today as I love to learn about strangers, their lives and how they perceive things. It's always an interesting exercise and today I had the opportunity to do this with my man.
So what did we learn? Well, our waitress has two cats. One is quite finicky with his food, the other quite normal with her choice of food. (yes, she had a brother and sister cat). The finicky cat is also quite intimidated by her big, tall, deep voiced boyfriend. And we learned that the food from a special pet store is really the only food that Mr. Finicky would eat. Interesting in its own right. But then, EQ posed the question: "Have you ever tasted the food you feed your cats? I have." And with that, we started down a whole new path of stories. Tales of tasting dog treats versus cat kibble versus wet cat food. (I'll admit openly that I tested a dog bone and kibble when I was a kid, but wet food? EEEEKS, no way!)
What could have been a simple story about her pet cats turned into a fun and silly conversation that went a little deeper beneath the surface. It was a shared set of stories that brought all three of us laughter and smiles. All born out of an extended moment together because a flight was cancelled.
Cool butterfly effect sometimes.
Moments that are extended beyond expectations.
Moments getting to know interesting tidbits of strangers.
Monday, August 12, 2013
Moments D546: Chasing the seagulls
Today was a near perfect day. So many moments. So many laughs. So many opportunities to share a story, a spoonful of ice cream, or a gulp of watered down lemonade.
My favourite moment of the day wasn't touring the museum of Science and Industry (though it was a lot of fun and very interesting - I highly recommend visiting it!), it was walking along the beach with EQ.
Having spent the afternoon indoors watching the rains roll through, it was refreshing to be outside and soaking in the heat from the sun. The sun was low in the sky (the golden hour) and we were both glowing in the sun's light. After a few fun pictures in the sun we happened across a flock of seagulls.
And I just couldn't help myself - I had to go chasing through them! Running through them waving my arms was a lot of fun and worth sharing. The seagulls starting flying all around me. See the picture! How much fun is this?
It totally made me smile. It made my boyfriend smile. What more can a girl ask for?
Moments being present and being silly.
Moments enjoying the beach post rain storms.
My favourite moment of the day wasn't touring the museum of Science and Industry (though it was a lot of fun and very interesting - I highly recommend visiting it!), it was walking along the beach with EQ.
Having spent the afternoon indoors watching the rains roll through, it was refreshing to be outside and soaking in the heat from the sun. The sun was low in the sky (the golden hour) and we were both glowing in the sun's light. After a few fun pictures in the sun we happened across a flock of seagulls.
And I just couldn't help myself - I had to go chasing through them! Running through them waving my arms was a lot of fun and worth sharing. The seagulls starting flying all around me. See the picture! How much fun is this?
It totally made me smile. It made my boyfriend smile. What more can a girl ask for?
Moments being present and being silly.
Moments enjoying the beach post rain storms.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Moments D475: Surprises gone wrong, turned right
Today was a fantastic day, I slept in, made my final preparations for my trip and then headed to the airport. I was headed back to my favourite city in the US (Chicago) to meet my boyfriend.
I arrived into Chicago early enough to have time to make some preparations for a surprise I had in mind. As my plan came together, my time table shifted. In a blink of an eye I found myself unprepared and floundering for a plan B. I found myself caught on the phone with a decision to make: Stay and ensure that Plan A worked out, or head out to meet up with my boyfriend and his friend for a late dinner. Even though I had eaten dinner already, I opted for heading down to meet up with the two gentlemen as it would be a treat to meet EQ's friend. And with that decision, plan A was quickly discarded.
The three of us sat and enjoyed dinner (well, they enjoyed dinner while I enjoyed my water!) We shared a story or three of the weekend's activities. I watched as the two of them spoke about the sport they loved and some of the interesting challenges they had faced over their weekend of training. Not only was it interesting to be a fly on the wall for those conversations, it was great to meet one of EQ's respected students who has become a good friend. As dinner neared its end, I had to figure out plan B in a hurry.
And just as quickly as Plan A was destroyed, Plan B took shape....and it worked. It worked out perfectly.
The moment here? Go with the flow. Have faith that a surprise gone wrong can be salvaged and enjoyed with a backup-on-the-fly plan. And sometimes, Plan B is actually a better Plan A. In my case, I was able to squeeze in dinner (right, water!), meet a new friend and still have a successful surprise to share. Bangarang!
Moments watching a surprise slip away.
Moments realizing that another surprise has filled its place.
I arrived into Chicago early enough to have time to make some preparations for a surprise I had in mind. As my plan came together, my time table shifted. In a blink of an eye I found myself unprepared and floundering for a plan B. I found myself caught on the phone with a decision to make: Stay and ensure that Plan A worked out, or head out to meet up with my boyfriend and his friend for a late dinner. Even though I had eaten dinner already, I opted for heading down to meet up with the two gentlemen as it would be a treat to meet EQ's friend. And with that decision, plan A was quickly discarded.
The three of us sat and enjoyed dinner (well, they enjoyed dinner while I enjoyed my water!) We shared a story or three of the weekend's activities. I watched as the two of them spoke about the sport they loved and some of the interesting challenges they had faced over their weekend of training. Not only was it interesting to be a fly on the wall for those conversations, it was great to meet one of EQ's respected students who has become a good friend. As dinner neared its end, I had to figure out plan B in a hurry.
And just as quickly as Plan A was destroyed, Plan B took shape....and it worked. It worked out perfectly.
The moment here? Go with the flow. Have faith that a surprise gone wrong can be salvaged and enjoyed with a backup-on-the-fly plan. And sometimes, Plan B is actually a better Plan A. In my case, I was able to squeeze in dinner (right, water!), meet a new friend and still have a successful surprise to share. Bangarang!
Moments watching a surprise slip away.
Moments realizing that another surprise has filled its place.
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Moments D474: Mornings Dance Parties
Today is BFF's birthday. We spent last night in, celebrating her special day early! We ordered in TWO delicious pizzas (hello breakfast!), wine (white and a red we didn't touch), a sip (or three) of delightful high, HIGH shelf vodka and then onto the bourbon. A few tears, many laughs and hugs later and before we knew it the clock rolled over to midnight. BFF was serenaded promptly at the turn of the minute hand by both myself and EQ via Skype. We crashed around 2am and we missed having our typical tipsy dance party as there were people sleeping already. But that's just the back story.
This morning BFF was up and 'atter at 7am! At first she told me to keep sleeping (I crashed on the couch) but she needed to make coffee (the special Hawaiian coffee!). There was no way I was letting her get up on her own on her birthday!! So I shook out the cobwebs from my brain, and rubbed the sleep from my eyes and sat up.
The early morning hours were much fun with BFF. I watched as the texts, FB posts and IM's came in wishing her birthday love. And before I knew it, we were doing what we do best....DANCE PARTY. Just before 8 am in the morning, the stereo was turned up and her camping theme song played loud, loud, loud. Yes! We had our first dance party of her birthday day! What a perfect way to start her birthday day!
BFF played DJ and we enjoyed a few songs in the early hours of the morning. We ventured all over the genres. It was a lot of fun! We even revisited some ROOTS and LL Cool J. We finished up the day with, of course, some BIG WRECK!
And one that you MUST MUST MUST SEE: A brilliant cover of "Blurred Lines" with Roots, Jimmy Fallon & Robin Thicke. ENJOY. (see if you can find the banana!)
Moments setting up a brilliant birthday day!
Moments having a dance party with your BFF.
This morning BFF was up and 'atter at 7am! At first she told me to keep sleeping (I crashed on the couch) but she needed to make coffee (the special Hawaiian coffee!). There was no way I was letting her get up on her own on her birthday!! So I shook out the cobwebs from my brain, and rubbed the sleep from my eyes and sat up.
The early morning hours were much fun with BFF. I watched as the texts, FB posts and IM's came in wishing her birthday love. And before I knew it, we were doing what we do best....DANCE PARTY. Just before 8 am in the morning, the stereo was turned up and her camping theme song played loud, loud, loud. Yes! We had our first dance party of her birthday day! What a perfect way to start her birthday day!
BFF played DJ and we enjoyed a few songs in the early hours of the morning. We ventured all over the genres. It was a lot of fun! We even revisited some ROOTS and LL Cool J. We finished up the day with, of course, some BIG WRECK!
And one that you MUST MUST MUST SEE: A brilliant cover of "Blurred Lines" with Roots, Jimmy Fallon & Robin Thicke. ENJOY. (see if you can find the banana!)
Moments setting up a brilliant birthday day!
Moments having a dance party with your BFF.
Friday, August 9, 2013
Moments D473: Silver Linings
Sometimes life is just nasty to you. It's nothing that you've done to deserve the negative energy, but perhaps it's a moment where you weren't strong enough to shield yourself from it. It happens. We all fall down from time to time, get a little (and sometimes a lot) beaten up, and feel bloodied and bruised.
Recently one of our own suffered through a terrible ordeal on his birthday weekend. I had texted him on his birthday (last Monday) and his reply was to share some details about this birthday nightmare. He shared it with me and me alone. When we arrived to the office on Tuesday, I shared the story briefly with our team and we quickly agreed that we should try to help out. Given that this ray of light touches many lives in the company, we sent out the following email to the entire staff team:
Pardon the intrusion, but one of our own suffered through an ordeal this past weekend and my department would like to reach out and see if we can’t help ease the pain a bit.
Imagine it's your birthday weekend. You're ready to have an awesome time with your family. Food, drink, presents. The whole nine. Then, suddenly all of that joy is taken away in a heartbeat.
Our good friend Ray of Light experienced exactly that this past weekend, as a thief stole his wife's purse (containing a great deal of cash, credit cards and gifts) while she rode the streetcar. Never mind the financial inconvenience this caused - being victimized like that sure would put a damper on MY weekend plans, and I'm guessing they did the same to Ray of Light and his family.
What we are hoping for, is the generosity of the folks who see every day. Just to give what you can. We are not looking to replace any particular amount, but rather we want to show Ray of Light and his family that there is an opposite (and much stronger) side to their lousy experience. Hopefully they can use whatever funds we raise to have a nice dinner and drinks together - on us.
If you're interested in contributing, we will be collecting your donations till Friday at noon. Let us know you'd like to donate via email, as we'd like to make this a surprise for Ray of Light. We'll present him with whatever we collect shortly after that.
Please be aware that we are trying to make this a surprise, so please no sharing with him prematurely!!
Thanks to everyone for whatever you can spare.
Back to your regularly scheduled day. :)
The response immediate. The flood of support and the depth of love that it brought with it was inspiring. We've been collecting funds since Tuesday and today when we handed over the card and envelope there was over $1000 collected for Ray of Light. A company full of incredibly generous people offering to line Ray of Light's dark cloud with a little (a LOT!) of silver. From the executive team down to the warehouse, he is loved.
When Ray of Light realized what had happened it was like a dam opening. We're living in tight quarters at the moment and I tried to give him enough space to process the flood. I hugged him, told him that he was loved by many and quietly handed him the box of kleenex. Twenty minutes later, composed enough, he shared these words back to the company:
To my team mates, my friends, my work family - words will not do justice, will not suffice to give meaning to how you have all touched my heart –how you have helped my family.
I am so overwhelmed by your kindness – and your thoughtfulness - I am beside myself – I would be more eloquent in thanking you – but I am crying too hard.
A good character is the best tombstone. Those who loved you and were helped by you will remember you when forget-me-nots have withered. Carve your name on hearts, not on marble.
My heart is full of names - I love you all, I am in your debt, thank you, thank you.He sent me a separate note, one that was just as heartfelt and touching:
Thank you most of all – one day I will find out what I did in my life to deserve a friend like you.Ray of Light is a good man. A man who has had quite a few hard knocks, and yet, he pushes forward, with a smile, with the ability to give more than he ever takes and he never, ever complains or asks for help. (Even when he should sometimes!) The outpouring of love and support only goes to show just how many people's lives his beautiful energy has inspired.
It was a beautiful moment to see him soak in the energy reflected back to him today to watch the darkness lift and his storm cloud blown away. As the rest of the day passed, I could feel him settling into the energy. Now Ray of Light will enjoy this weekend with his family (including visitors from out of town) without worrying about how he is going to afford to feed his extended family.
Ray of Light will left work with a full heart, a recharged soul and the understanding that while life can be nasty and break you down, there are loving people around that can help lift the burden and brighten the world around again. He is not alone.
You are not alone. Nor am I.
It's a story to share because many of us feel alone in times of trouble and don't always look past the darkness to realize that we have a support system. This is a beautiful example of that. It just takes a moment to share.
Moments watching the darkness lift and a heart swell.
Moments appreciating the beautiful people I work with.
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Moments D472: A new flower design....for my toes
Tonight I went for a manicure and a pedicure right after work. It's always a time that I enjoy. Tonight it was particularly enjoyable for two reasons. Tommy & EQ.
The first, I had a male esthetician, Tommy who is incredible at hand painting interesting designs on fingernails and toenails. I was happy to see him available for me. (even though he always complains at how dry my skin is.) The first thing he said to me as I walked to the wall of nail polish colours was, "You look beautiful today Jennifer." (Points scored there for sure! (a) He remembered my name, and (b) he was flattering in a none-creepy-kinda-way.)
My time with Tommy was interesting tonight as the energy was high (in part to the excitement that EQ & I brought to the salon) and in part to a heated discussion happening between Tommy and Jenny, one of the other estheticians as they discussed when was best to start a family.
Tonight I learned that Tommy has been working in a salon since he was 12. He's now 35 and helping to support his Mom here in the city having just moved from Woodbridge. He loves riddles and he shared a few with me as "I'm a smart girl...." Here's a quick one:
In the end Tommy did an amazing job and his design on my big toe was so intricate and pretty. I can't wait to show them off! (take a peek!)
The second moment within this time frame was the fact that I was actually Skyping with EQ when I arrived and I put him to work! I showed him the wall of nail polish colours and had him help me choose the colour for my toes. Why not right? It was fun, it was silly and I think the entire salon of people enjoyed the banter that they watched us interact! Then as I sat and soaked my feet and Tommy worked away the weeks of grime, I had a good chat with EQ. What a treat all around with lots of laughter.
Thank you Tommy and thank you EQ for bringing a smile (or three!0, some sparkles and a lot of laughs this evening.
Moments being pampered.
Moments laughing and sharing.
The first, I had a male esthetician, Tommy who is incredible at hand painting interesting designs on fingernails and toenails. I was happy to see him available for me. (even though he always complains at how dry my skin is.) The first thing he said to me as I walked to the wall of nail polish colours was, "You look beautiful today Jennifer." (Points scored there for sure! (a) He remembered my name, and (b) he was flattering in a none-creepy-kinda-way.)
My time with Tommy was interesting tonight as the energy was high (in part to the excitement that EQ & I brought to the salon) and in part to a heated discussion happening between Tommy and Jenny, one of the other estheticians as they discussed when was best to start a family.
Tonight I learned that Tommy has been working in a salon since he was 12. He's now 35 and helping to support his Mom here in the city having just moved from Woodbridge. He loves riddles and he shared a few with me as "I'm a smart girl...." Here's a quick one:
It's a race between a red lobster and a blue lobster. Which one wins?I also learned that Tommy likes to hang out at the lake and to party in his spare time, but he needs to eventually settle down as he wants to have a family. Thus the discussion on when to start a family. Eventually Jenny & Tommy turned to me as mediator! I laughed I told them I'm the wrong person to be asking as I wouldn't be having kids. This shocked them both and the questions rolled out. It was quite amusing all around.
In the end Tommy did an amazing job and his design on my big toe was so intricate and pretty. I can't wait to show them off! (take a peek!)
The second moment within this time frame was the fact that I was actually Skyping with EQ when I arrived and I put him to work! I showed him the wall of nail polish colours and had him help me choose the colour for my toes. Why not right? It was fun, it was silly and I think the entire salon of people enjoyed the banter that they watched us interact! Then as I sat and soaked my feet and Tommy worked away the weeks of grime, I had a good chat with EQ. What a treat all around with lots of laughter.
Thank you Tommy and thank you EQ for bringing a smile (or three!0, some sparkles and a lot of laughs this evening.
Moments being pampered.
Moments laughing and sharing.
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Moments D471b: Surprise Mail
Isn't it great when you open your mailbox and instead of just bills or admail, there is a surprise piece of mail inside? No no, not that thingamabob that you bought on eBay, you were expecting that. No, I mean something that you had no idea was on its way to you.
I love that moment holding it in your hands. Turning it over and reading the return address. Admiring the penmanship. That moment of wonder before opening the envelope. Is it an invitation? Are there photos? Do the words share a smile or a tear? The anticipation.
This is why I love to send random cards to my friends. I love receiving them.
I couldn't let today pass without sharing this second awesome moment.....because tonight when I arrived home, I had a surprise waiting for me! In fact, not only did I have one surprise, but TWO surprise pieces of mail!
One was from an Italian sailor, his spice wafting from the envelope. The script flows smoothly and there are four stamps upon it, two of which were Chippendale chairs. I smiled as I carefully opened up the envelope. Inside there was a beautiful card filled with loving words, and a sticker - FLY. Yes, I am flying.
The second was from my love. It's script is more firm and structured. My guess is that a lovely lady wrote out my address and mailed it. But inside is the familiar script with many colourful words fanning the fires. Truly. Madly. Deeply.
Moments for surprises.
Moments for smiles.
I love that moment holding it in your hands. Turning it over and reading the return address. Admiring the penmanship. That moment of wonder before opening the envelope. Is it an invitation? Are there photos? Do the words share a smile or a tear? The anticipation.
This is why I love to send random cards to my friends. I love receiving them.
I couldn't let today pass without sharing this second awesome moment.....because tonight when I arrived home, I had a surprise waiting for me! In fact, not only did I have one surprise, but TWO surprise pieces of mail!
One was from an Italian sailor, his spice wafting from the envelope. The script flows smoothly and there are four stamps upon it, two of which were Chippendale chairs. I smiled as I carefully opened up the envelope. Inside there was a beautiful card filled with loving words, and a sticker - FLY. Yes, I am flying.
The second was from my love. It's script is more firm and structured. My guess is that a lovely lady wrote out my address and mailed it. But inside is the familiar script with many colourful words fanning the fires. Truly. Madly. Deeply.
Moments for surprises.
Moments for smiles.
Moments D471: Old Gift Cards
Today I tested out the theory that a gift card, one purchased and paid for, never expires. As a shower gift, ten years ago, I was given a gift card that I never used. Why? Well, it's not a store that I am a frequent patron of and secondly, I likely misplaced it for a few years. When I moved, I found a lot of things that I had safely packed away. This gift card was one of them.
So, tonight, I used it. And though it took a bit for the cashier to process the gift card, all went well in the end. That was a pretty awesome moment. I wasn't convinced that a 10 year old gift card would work. It did. And that means that the time I spent trying on the clothes didn't go wasted.
Moments waiting in anticipation.
Moments when things go as planned!
So, tonight, I used it. And though it took a bit for the cashier to process the gift card, all went well in the end. That was a pretty awesome moment. I wasn't convinced that a 10 year old gift card would work. It did. And that means that the time I spent trying on the clothes didn't go wasted.
Moments waiting in anticipation.
Moments when things go as planned!
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
Moments D470: Slipping Happy Secrets
Once in awhile there is a piece of your life that brings you such joy and happiness that you want to hold it close and not share it with too many people for one reason or another. I very much fall into this behaviour from time to time. This particular secret has brought me immeasurable joy, light and love into my world. I've been holding it close to me for fear that sharing the secret may jinx it. As time passes the secret has become ever deeper a part of my life and sharing it seems a lot less scary.
And so, the secret has been slipping out slowly, bit by bit.
In my blogs from the past week, I've casually mentioned that I've fallen in love. I know, I KNOW, that's actually a HUGE piece of information to share and I kinda just slipped it in there. But I'm not ready to gush knowing that if I gush may never stop! I can't do that to you dear readers! I highlight this secret only to be able to share with you how today's moment found to me.
Today's moment came to me from a highly respected and loved co-worker. He dropped by as he made his afternoon tea. I know he reads my blog, and I figured he would pick up on my casual mention of love. Sure enough, he asked me about it. There was no preamble. He didn't even mention my blog. With a big smile and a devious twinkle in his eye, he said,
And then the dam burst and I flooded him with information on my new love. {gush}
Moments being called out.
Moments sharing a glorious secret.
And so, the secret has been slipping out slowly, bit by bit.
In my blogs from the past week, I've casually mentioned that I've fallen in love. I know, I KNOW, that's actually a HUGE piece of information to share and I kinda just slipped it in there. But I'm not ready to gush knowing that if I gush may never stop! I can't do that to you dear readers! I highlight this secret only to be able to share with you how today's moment found to me.
Today's moment came to me from a highly respected and loved co-worker. He dropped by as he made his afternoon tea. I know he reads my blog, and I figured he would pick up on my casual mention of love. Sure enough, he asked me about it. There was no preamble. He didn't even mention my blog. With a big smile and a devious twinkle in his eye, he said,
"So, do I know him?" Long pause. "I'll bet I know him. Don't I?"All I could do was sit there and beam. Caught. I couldn't try to put my happy secret away even if I wanted to. My response was just as simple, with a (surely) stupid grin on my face,
"Yes, yes you know him."We stayed like that for a moment in silence. Smiling. Laughing in silence. It was a perfectly awesome moment.
And then the dam burst and I flooded him with information on my new love. {gush}
Moments being called out.
Moments sharing a glorious secret.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Moments D469: New Beginnings
Love is in the air!
This morning, before I was even out of bed, I had a fantastic phone call with someone dear to me. Lazing in the morning sunshine, I listened as she shared with me stories of her date yesterday. A date from out of the blue. A man who had recently, simply walked into her life.
I can see the seeds of love being sown and from her tales I heard the ever nourishing sunshine feeding them.
As we spoke, I was reminded of many a conversation I have had with her about not accepting anything less than the best for a partner. In all the days that I've known her, she has never been this open to accepting love because he (whoever he was) didn't measure up. This lovely gentleman, however, has already offered more than those I know before. I can also see how he may (universe willing!) be one to stand beside her, protect, honour and cherish her as I know she deserves to be.
I couldn't be more happy than to share that moment of giddiness with her. It was a brilliant moment and a beautiful way to start my day.
Moments sharing the giddiness of new love.
Moments celebrating new beginnings.
This morning, before I was even out of bed, I had a fantastic phone call with someone dear to me. Lazing in the morning sunshine, I listened as she shared with me stories of her date yesterday. A date from out of the blue. A man who had recently, simply walked into her life.
I can see the seeds of love being sown and from her tales I heard the ever nourishing sunshine feeding them.
As we spoke, I was reminded of many a conversation I have had with her about not accepting anything less than the best for a partner. In all the days that I've known her, she has never been this open to accepting love because he (whoever he was) didn't measure up. This lovely gentleman, however, has already offered more than those I know before. I can also see how he may (universe willing!) be one to stand beside her, protect, honour and cherish her as I know she deserves to be.
I couldn't be more happy than to share that moment of giddiness with her. It was a brilliant moment and a beautiful way to start my day.
Moments sharing the giddiness of new love.
Moments celebrating new beginnings.
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Moments D468: Wounded Animal
In the wee hours of this morning, sitting in the fog of a day post-self-pity and self-flagellation I had a conversation that changed my life.
That in itself was a moment, because my world noticing pushed out extra love to me. And for that I'm grateful.
More importantly, the man that I have fallen in love with noticed. He shared ten small words packed with the protection of his love and light. Packed. Full. My eyes instantly filled with tears when I read them. A flood of intense, unexpected emotion ran through me in the brief moment that it took me to read these ten words. I realized, in a blink of an eye, that for the first time in my adult life, not only was I understood, I was being sheltered and given the space to do what I needed to do to heal. It was one of the most beautiful moments I've ever experienced. It's like that moment where pieces all snap into place perfectly without a fuss; or that moment where the clouds part and the full moon, in all her glory, lights up the darkness below; it is that clear moment where you know you have been changed. They are simple words, but their depth is beyond measure.
Sure. I know how that sounds. It sounds dramatic. It sounds unbelievable. Looking back, it feels like a dream, but I know, I KNOW, that it is real and I understand with more certainty than ever before just how beautiful digging deeper can be.
The long and short of it is that this week wounded me. I felt like a wounded animal, looking for a safe, dark place to hide while I heal. Being wounded, I was off. I had no light to shine and share. I had no energy for laughter. I wasn't my typically bubbly self. And it was noticed. My world noticed.
That in itself was a moment, because my world noticing pushed out extra love to me. And for that I'm grateful.
More importantly, the man that I have fallen in love with noticed. He shared ten small words packed with the protection of his love and light. Packed. Full. My eyes instantly filled with tears when I read them. A flood of intense, unexpected emotion ran through me in the brief moment that it took me to read these ten words. I realized, in a blink of an eye, that for the first time in my adult life, not only was I understood, I was being sheltered and given the space to do what I needed to do to heal. It was one of the most beautiful moments I've ever experienced. It's like that moment where pieces all snap into place perfectly without a fuss; or that moment where the clouds part and the full moon, in all her glory, lights up the darkness below; it is that clear moment where you know you have been changed. They are simple words, but their depth is beyond measure.
Lick your wounds, love
I'm standing over you
I understand.
I will never forget these words. Never before has the wounded animal in me been calmed as quickly and as succinctly. In ten words, I was accepted as my wounded self (it was okay!), I was protected (safe to share, safe to cry, safe to sit in silence) and I was understood (I didn't need to further explain and/or justify my actions/inaction!).
And in my fog, I had a celebration. One that filled me with a light that began to burn the fog away. Before I knew it, I was laughing again. I wasn't quite ready to sprinkle my joyful fairy dust around again, but I was feeling better. (Neither was I pooping rainbows and glitter, but that's another story!)
Moments accepting that you are wounded.
Moments being accepted that you are licking your wounds.
And in my fog, I had a celebration. One that filled me with a light that began to burn the fog away. Before I knew it, I was laughing again. I wasn't quite ready to sprinkle my joyful fairy dust around again, but I was feeling better. (Neither was I pooping rainbows and glitter, but that's another story!)
Moments accepting that you are wounded.
Moments being accepted that you are licking your wounds.
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Moments D467: Old Newspaper Clippings
Today I took to myself. I slept in. I lazed around and watched the rest of season three of Sons of Anarchy. I took some time to sit with my thoughts, without action. And then, I finally roused myself to clean up my apartment that had been hit by a hurricane. (That took me a lot longer than I had anticipated!) As I cleaned up my office area from post-exam mess, I tucked away my textbook and pulled out a book of poems. I'm not sure why I grabbed the book. I've never really understood a lot of poetry as I find it, at times, too abstract. Having a more scientific mind than one of artistry, I find some poetry challenging to understand, and yet, I do enjoy it. So, I flipped through my old high school book, I spent time with the prose within.
As I continued to flip through the book, I ran across a newspaper clipping that I had enclosed in tape to keep the three days of clippings safe. Interestingly, I had completely forgotten about them. A memory that slipped away from me.
The clippings were from my high school sweetheart. He posted in the local newspaper a sweet message thanking me for the time we had been together and wishing me a very Merry Christmas and the promise of more. Fitting that I tucked it away in my book of poems from high school and interesting that I came across it today, a day where I was licking wounds and cleaning up my space.
Coincidence? Maybe. Either way, it was timely.
Moments for yourself.
Moments from the past resurfacing to offer a smile.
As I continued to flip through the book, I ran across a newspaper clipping that I had enclosed in tape to keep the three days of clippings safe. Interestingly, I had completely forgotten about them. A memory that slipped away from me.
The clippings were from my high school sweetheart. He posted in the local newspaper a sweet message thanking me for the time we had been together and wishing me a very Merry Christmas and the promise of more. Fitting that I tucked it away in my book of poems from high school and interesting that I came across it today, a day where I was licking wounds and cleaning up my space.
Coincidence? Maybe. Either way, it was timely.
Moments for yourself.
Moments from the past resurfacing to offer a smile.
Friday, August 2, 2013
Moments D466: Girls Night Out
Running on a mere 3.5 hours of sleep and emotionally drained, I very nearly bailed on my Friday. Part of me wanted to just pull the covers over my head and stay in bed all day.
I refused to succumb! I dragged my tired butt out of bed, drank a boatload of coffee, had an incredibly productive and fun day at work (we had a Mexican potluck lunch!) and then I freshened up and went out with some fabulous girls from work.
We went bar hopping on Queen West, from the Caddy (for dinner and an awesome bourbon caesar) to the Savoy for a couple of drinks, to the Church for a couple more drinks. From there we walked up Ossignton and had a few laughs along the way. From one wine bar with a bar full of gents shooing us away because they were closed for a private party (though the door was open!) to going into and then quickly out of another bar that had a strange hip hop vibe. We finally settled at the Dakota Tavern where Melissa Payne was playing.
Though I was tired and a little less lively than normal, it was an incredibly fun night out. Sometimes blowing off some steam is exactly what is needed.
Moments pushing through exhaustion.
Moments celebrating new friendships and girl power.
I refused to succumb! I dragged my tired butt out of bed, drank a boatload of coffee, had an incredibly productive and fun day at work (we had a Mexican potluck lunch!) and then I freshened up and went out with some fabulous girls from work.
We went bar hopping on Queen West, from the Caddy (for dinner and an awesome bourbon caesar) to the Savoy for a couple of drinks, to the Church for a couple more drinks. From there we walked up Ossignton and had a few laughs along the way. From one wine bar with a bar full of gents shooing us away because they were closed for a private party (though the door was open!) to going into and then quickly out of another bar that had a strange hip hop vibe. We finally settled at the Dakota Tavern where Melissa Payne was playing.
Though I was tired and a little less lively than normal, it was an incredibly fun night out. Sometimes blowing off some steam is exactly what is needed.
Moments pushing through exhaustion.
Moments celebrating new friendships and girl power.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Moments D465: Truth Sets you Free
We all have skeletons in the closet. One's personal history is not always easy to revisit, but sometimes, a lot of time actually, it is vital to do so. Being the person I am, one always looking to grow and evolve, I knew that I would have to share more about one particular skeleton than I ever wanted to. In the end, today was a big growth day. It hurt, but it didn't break me. Sometimes growing hurts; I accept that. Life is about the journey. Without the pains of life, we have less capacity to enjoy the beauty of life. I accept that Yin/Yang understanding of my world. And so, without further preamble, today's moment is about sharing difficult, dark truths and leaning on those you love for the light they shine creating a pathway out of the dark.
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I've been quiet the past few days because I had a bombed dropped in my lap this past week. In a week that had too much on my plate to deal with, one of my skeletons rose its ugly, angry, abusive head. And I had to deal with it. I couldn't ignore it. And though I reached out to one within my support system, I swore her to secrecy. I then dealt with the situation as quickly as my jammed schedule would allow. I didn't share my struggle, my fear, or my shock with the rest of my support system. Fear and shame held me hostage - I held it close to me and suffered through the coaster of emotions. I hid from the world and more importantly I hid from those I loved.
Four days later, armed with some answers, I felt more confident (which does not mean I was confident, far from it!) to shed light into those dark recesses of my closet. I wasn't sure I was ready to go into those corners, but I was aware that it was necessary. Most importantly, being transparent with the man I love was necessary. So, filled with shame, guilt, anger (for finding myself in this position in the first place) and a touch of fear, I filled in the support system I have in my life. I really wasn't ready for the onslaught of love, light and support that I found enveloping me.
Those that love me were not happy with me for carrying this burden alone. Their first reaction was to express their disappointment and anger for my decision to walk alone through this. From coworkers to my best friends, the message was the same. "Why didn't you tell me sooner?" Amazingly (and maybe I shouldn't be amazed, as my friends are incredible people), their anger and disappointment quickly morphed to love and support. Their gentle reminders, words of encouragement and understanding began to lift the dark cloud of fear for sharing such a dark truth.
I'm still processing the darkness. As I sit in anger at myself, I know that I will need some time to forgive myself. But, sharing this truth; sharing this darkness, has given me a new perspective on my past and a breath of light that I needed to help shed the darkness. It's given me a new appreciation for that which I have learned. I've been naive. I've allowed myself to be used and manipulated. I didn't hear (I listened!) to the warning signs from my best friends. I had a path to walk and I walked it regardless of the warnings. I had a lesson to learn. I've learned. My dear, loving friends.....I. HAVE. LEARNED.
Moments digging deeper than you ever want to go.
Moments sharing truth and leaning on your loved ones and knowing that you are surrounded in love and light.
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I've been quiet the past few days because I had a bombed dropped in my lap this past week. In a week that had too much on my plate to deal with, one of my skeletons rose its ugly, angry, abusive head. And I had to deal with it. I couldn't ignore it. And though I reached out to one within my support system, I swore her to secrecy. I then dealt with the situation as quickly as my jammed schedule would allow. I didn't share my struggle, my fear, or my shock with the rest of my support system. Fear and shame held me hostage - I held it close to me and suffered through the coaster of emotions. I hid from the world and more importantly I hid from those I loved.
Four days later, armed with some answers, I felt more confident (which does not mean I was confident, far from it!) to shed light into those dark recesses of my closet. I wasn't sure I was ready to go into those corners, but I was aware that it was necessary. Most importantly, being transparent with the man I love was necessary. So, filled with shame, guilt, anger (for finding myself in this position in the first place) and a touch of fear, I filled in the support system I have in my life. I really wasn't ready for the onslaught of love, light and support that I found enveloping me.
Those that love me were not happy with me for carrying this burden alone. Their first reaction was to express their disappointment and anger for my decision to walk alone through this. From coworkers to my best friends, the message was the same. "Why didn't you tell me sooner?" Amazingly (and maybe I shouldn't be amazed, as my friends are incredible people), their anger and disappointment quickly morphed to love and support. Their gentle reminders, words of encouragement and understanding began to lift the dark cloud of fear for sharing such a dark truth.
I'm still processing the darkness. As I sit in anger at myself, I know that I will need some time to forgive myself. But, sharing this truth; sharing this darkness, has given me a new perspective on my past and a breath of light that I needed to help shed the darkness. It's given me a new appreciation for that which I have learned. I've been naive. I've allowed myself to be used and manipulated. I didn't hear (I listened!) to the warning signs from my best friends. I had a path to walk and I walked it regardless of the warnings. I had a lesson to learn. I've learned. My dear, loving friends.....I. HAVE. LEARNED.
Moments digging deeper than you ever want to go.
Moments sharing truth and leaning on your loved ones and knowing that you are surrounded in love and light.
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