Today was a very long travel day, but it's exciting to be back and starting the newest chapter of life here in Toronto and this time my love is with me.
To that point, and a total side bar to today's moment, the fact that EQ now in Toronto with me is amazing. Looking ahead, I'll do my best not to inundate you with "us" stories as our chapter unfolds as I know we'll be experiencing many firsts and exciting moments as the days pass. Only the most relevant that fall into my best "daily moments" will make the cut. I promise!
Back to today's moment.
Today's moment is very apropos to the fact that EQ and I are now travelling together. Not only are we travelling together on the plane (for only the third time in the same direction and not to different cities!), but we are travelling together in life. Metaphorical. Deep, and it had me pondering the bigger picture while watching something very simple.
My moment today came as we were just leaving Atlanta, GA where we were laid over for nearly 3 hours. Our plane was slow to make its way to our takeoff runway and as we waited on the tarmac for the final paperwork to leave, I had the opportunity to watch as other planes were landing.
The "a-ha" moment came, just as we were about to take off. Our engine revving, another plane landed on the runway beside us. As it was turning around to taxi back to the terminals, we began our takeoff.
As I watched, I reflected on the comings and goings of months passed. The places, the people, the food, the experiences. So much has happened. I've been able to spread my wings and fly more and as a result I've grown so much.
So many comings and goings. I found myself smiling because this time I wasn't looking at the other plane wondering how EQ was doing on his flight home. This time he was right beside me. Yes, beside me.
I don't know if he noticed, but I squeezed his hand a little tighter in that moment and then watched our takeoff with a big smile upon my face.
Goodbye Atlanta. Thanks for reminding me that I'm no longer travelling alone.
Moments reflecting upon the hustle and bustle of an airport.
Moments where the coming and going planes remind you of your life.
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Saturday, January 11, 2014
Monday, October 7, 2013
Moments D532: Deepening Relationships
Today's moment snuck up on me. So much so, that earlier today I had a different blog moment drafted to share. That shifted after tonight's dinner with new, and amazing, friends.
Today EQ and I spent quite a bit of time filling our day with questions shared, answered and unveiling new questions to dig into. Each question brought light to a new path for the two of us. This, the man I love. Very exciting in its own right. Today, together we were inspired to keep digging ever deeper to find answers to those questions.
After a cheeky post-work conversation we were on our way to meet EQ's closest friends for dinner. And while I was very much expecting an incredible evening (very easy to feel that it would be such as these are two very incredible people!), I had no idea what the evening's conversation would unfold.
Dinner began by opening a Gary Farrell Cabernet Sauvingnon, likely the mate to the Chardonnay we shared only four weeks ago. The first to lift a glass was, oh, let's call her TREE. (Tree because she is very grounded, but very flexible and calm. Much like the roots of a tree, grounded, yet the leaves ever swaying in the wind.), Well Tree's sweet husband teased her that the first to lift the glass was responsible for the toast of the evening. With a look of hesitation, Tree tentatively began her toast. As she eased into the toast, confidence found her and she dove into a world of words that mirrored those of the relationship EQ and I have built over time. The synchronicity was chilling. Her toast was most poignant, deeper than she was aware. (pardon the pun!)
With tears building and beginning to wet my eyes, I shared the story and much deeper meaning behind her toast words of "deepening relationships." Bottom line: EQ & I built our relationship based on two simple words: "dig deeper". It brought goosebumps.
The rest of the evening was like a dream. Time seemed to slow. With the sentiment of "deepening relationships" hanging in the air, EQ found words to share with me that will forever deepen our relationship. A very special moment shared with very special and aware friends.
Throughout the rest of the evening, deep conversation continued to flow along with the wine and celebrations throughout the delightful meal we enjoyed together.
Moments deepening relationships with new friends.
Moments ever digging deeper in love.
Today EQ and I spent quite a bit of time filling our day with questions shared, answered and unveiling new questions to dig into. Each question brought light to a new path for the two of us. This, the man I love. Very exciting in its own right. Today, together we were inspired to keep digging ever deeper to find answers to those questions.
After a cheeky post-work conversation we were on our way to meet EQ's closest friends for dinner. And while I was very much expecting an incredible evening (very easy to feel that it would be such as these are two very incredible people!), I had no idea what the evening's conversation would unfold.
Dinner began by opening a Gary Farrell Cabernet Sauvingnon, likely the mate to the Chardonnay we shared only four weeks ago. The first to lift a glass was, oh, let's call her TREE. (Tree because she is very grounded, but very flexible and calm. Much like the roots of a tree, grounded, yet the leaves ever swaying in the wind.), Well Tree's sweet husband teased her that the first to lift the glass was responsible for the toast of the evening. With a look of hesitation, Tree tentatively began her toast. As she eased into the toast, confidence found her and she dove into a world of words that mirrored those of the relationship EQ and I have built over time. The synchronicity was chilling. Her toast was most poignant, deeper than she was aware. (pardon the pun!)
With tears building and beginning to wet my eyes, I shared the story and much deeper meaning behind her toast words of "deepening relationships." Bottom line: EQ & I built our relationship based on two simple words: "dig deeper". It brought goosebumps.
The rest of the evening was like a dream. Time seemed to slow. With the sentiment of "deepening relationships" hanging in the air, EQ found words to share with me that will forever deepen our relationship. A very special moment shared with very special and aware friends.
Throughout the rest of the evening, deep conversation continued to flow along with the wine and celebrations throughout the delightful meal we enjoyed together.
Moments deepening relationships with new friends.
Moments ever digging deeper in love.
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Moments D530: Dawn
Today I was up at 4 am so I could catch the first flight out to LA this morning. I needed to be there with EQ to support and participate in "Chicks Rock 2013". As I travelled West, I watched the sunrise from the air and I couldn't help but think about just how fitting that moment was for today's blog.
Fitting because it is my 600th blog. A milestone on its own.
Fitting because I continue to renew and redesign what my future path is. Every day offers me the opportunity to revisit and revise what it is I want and how I'm going to achieve that goal.
Fitting because today I am starting a new chapter in my life with this trip out to California.
A new dawn. Renewal. Rejuvenation. The promise of opportunity and adventure. No matter what comes next, it's coming. It's the ultimate promise of new beginnings.
There was a lot of emotion captured in those early morning moments of the morning. The depth of symbolism fit ever so perfectly.
Moments watching the sunrise.
Moments reflecting upon the opportunities that lie ahead - a new dawn.
Fitting because it is my 600th blog. A milestone on its own.
Fitting because I continue to renew and redesign what my future path is. Every day offers me the opportunity to revisit and revise what it is I want and how I'm going to achieve that goal.
Fitting because today I am starting a new chapter in my life with this trip out to California.
A new dawn. Renewal. Rejuvenation. The promise of opportunity and adventure. No matter what comes next, it's coming. It's the ultimate promise of new beginnings.
There was a lot of emotion captured in those early morning moments of the morning. The depth of symbolism fit ever so perfectly.
Moments watching the sunrise.
Moments reflecting upon the opportunities that lie ahead - a new dawn.
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Moments D495: Parental Insights
While today is an exciting day (Chapter 6 officially begins later today!) my moment of the day came started early (VERY EARLY) today and was repeated this morning. I suppose it's like a prequel to Chapter 6. Yes, yes. I realize that doesn't make a lot of sense, after all, wouldn't the prequel simply be Chapter 5? Right, yes. I suppose it would be. Okay. Let's call this the closing of Chapter 5. This moment being when my parents shared their (individual and combined) impressions of my boyfriend with me. It's the first time we've had a chance to do so post-family BBQ last weekend.
Now, as a side bar, I know that EQ has been eager to hear the feedback, worried about the possibility that he wouldn't be embraced into the family. HA! What a laugh. He's AMAZING. My family is AMAZING. OF COURSE he was accepted into the folds! Still, I understand the need for the words, and I have yet to share them all with him. That will come as we open Chapter 6.
Back to today's moment. Late last night (which was actually early this morning), after my Dad retired to bed, Mom and I sat and chatted about where my life has travelled in the past 6 months. Her first comment: "This is moving fast." My reply, "Yes Mom. It is, but remember, I've known him well for over 2 years. We've were friends first before we ever crossed into the realm of love." She nodded and off we went about how much she enjoyed meeting EQ and that she could see how much he adores me. She asked, "Are you happy?" My answer was quick to surface, "Yes Mom, more than I've ever been." We spoke into the wee hours of the morning before retiring ourselves.
And then, a similar conversation surfaced with my Dad. He is an early riser. I was up early (after a quick call with EQ on his way to work, and yes, I do tend to burn the candles at both ends!), so I joined my Dad on the deck with a cup of coffee. With a twinkle in his eye and a smile that spoke volumes he asked, "Are you excited about your coming trip?" "Yes Dad, very. This is a new chapter in my life about to begin." His reply, "Yes, I can tell that it is. Your mother and I are just so happy to see you so happy." And off we went talking about what the future may bring.
Both conversations were amusingly similar even though they were (obviously) distinct conversations. It warmed me, for my dear sweet love has captured the a piece of my Mom & Dad's hearts. (or so they shared when they each had me alone!) They enjoy talking to him, they were impressed with the video he took the time and energy to put together for my family to enjoy, they were grateful for the little offerings that he's brought to them since their meeting last weekend and they both, they both enjoyed experiencing his music and both, individually, and later together, reminded me that they very much look forward to spending some quality time with just the four of us. (A family BBQ is very busy after all!) All very sweet, warm, loving, supportive words.
And as I left to travel to the start of Chapter 6, Dad's hug and encouraging words goodbye said it all. "You deserve happiness kiddo. Go enjoy it."
Moments feeling the love and support of your family.
Moments knowing that you are on the right path.
Now, as a side bar, I know that EQ has been eager to hear the feedback, worried about the possibility that he wouldn't be embraced into the family. HA! What a laugh. He's AMAZING. My family is AMAZING. OF COURSE he was accepted into the folds! Still, I understand the need for the words, and I have yet to share them all with him. That will come as we open Chapter 6.
Back to today's moment. Late last night (which was actually early this morning), after my Dad retired to bed, Mom and I sat and chatted about where my life has travelled in the past 6 months. Her first comment: "This is moving fast." My reply, "Yes Mom. It is, but remember, I've known him well for over 2 years. We've were friends first before we ever crossed into the realm of love." She nodded and off we went about how much she enjoyed meeting EQ and that she could see how much he adores me. She asked, "Are you happy?" My answer was quick to surface, "Yes Mom, more than I've ever been." We spoke into the wee hours of the morning before retiring ourselves.
And then, a similar conversation surfaced with my Dad. He is an early riser. I was up early (after a quick call with EQ on his way to work, and yes, I do tend to burn the candles at both ends!), so I joined my Dad on the deck with a cup of coffee. With a twinkle in his eye and a smile that spoke volumes he asked, "Are you excited about your coming trip?" "Yes Dad, very. This is a new chapter in my life about to begin." His reply, "Yes, I can tell that it is. Your mother and I are just so happy to see you so happy." And off we went talking about what the future may bring.
Both conversations were amusingly similar even though they were (obviously) distinct conversations. It warmed me, for my dear sweet love has captured the a piece of my Mom & Dad's hearts. (or so they shared when they each had me alone!) They enjoy talking to him, they were impressed with the video he took the time and energy to put together for my family to enjoy, they were grateful for the little offerings that he's brought to them since their meeting last weekend and they both, they both enjoyed experiencing his music and both, individually, and later together, reminded me that they very much look forward to spending some quality time with just the four of us. (A family BBQ is very busy after all!) All very sweet, warm, loving, supportive words.
And as I left to travel to the start of Chapter 6, Dad's hug and encouraging words goodbye said it all. "You deserve happiness kiddo. Go enjoy it."
Moments feeling the love and support of your family.
Moments knowing that you are on the right path.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Moments D469: New Beginnings
Love is in the air!
This morning, before I was even out of bed, I had a fantastic phone call with someone dear to me. Lazing in the morning sunshine, I listened as she shared with me stories of her date yesterday. A date from out of the blue. A man who had recently, simply walked into her life.
I can see the seeds of love being sown and from her tales I heard the ever nourishing sunshine feeding them.
As we spoke, I was reminded of many a conversation I have had with her about not accepting anything less than the best for a partner. In all the days that I've known her, she has never been this open to accepting love because he (whoever he was) didn't measure up. This lovely gentleman, however, has already offered more than those I know before. I can also see how he may (universe willing!) be one to stand beside her, protect, honour and cherish her as I know she deserves to be.
I couldn't be more happy than to share that moment of giddiness with her. It was a brilliant moment and a beautiful way to start my day.
Moments sharing the giddiness of new love.
Moments celebrating new beginnings.
This morning, before I was even out of bed, I had a fantastic phone call with someone dear to me. Lazing in the morning sunshine, I listened as she shared with me stories of her date yesterday. A date from out of the blue. A man who had recently, simply walked into her life.
I can see the seeds of love being sown and from her tales I heard the ever nourishing sunshine feeding them.
As we spoke, I was reminded of many a conversation I have had with her about not accepting anything less than the best for a partner. In all the days that I've known her, she has never been this open to accepting love because he (whoever he was) didn't measure up. This lovely gentleman, however, has already offered more than those I know before. I can also see how he may (universe willing!) be one to stand beside her, protect, honour and cherish her as I know she deserves to be.
I couldn't be more happy than to share that moment of giddiness with her. It was a brilliant moment and a beautiful way to start my day.
Moments sharing the giddiness of new love.
Moments celebrating new beginnings.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Moments D316: Surrealness
Tonight I had a last minute change in plans. A Leaf’s game. My BFF is the biggest fan I know. We were excited just to be going to an unexpected game.
A day earlier, we had other exciting news, which may not be public knowledge just yet, but it was worthy of a celebration. And then a hockey game falls into our lap.
My BFF and I go to one of our favourite pubs in the city. Now, Prohibition is no typical pub. It specializes in a gastronomic menu. It’s brilliant and a perfect way to start our celebratory evening out. Great start, right? A couple of glasses of wine a tasty Buckingham Blanket and off we go to the ACC.
AND WE FIND OUT WE ARE IN THE FOURTH ROW from the ICE!! It was surreal. Seeing the Leafs and the Senators playing that close. They seemed stronger and faster somehow!
AND it was an amazing game. Seconds into the game gloves are dropped and a fight breaks out. My BFF is giddy beside me. Between periods we chatted with the usher and the gents beside us. I post a couple of pictures to Facebook only to find out that an old friend from high school, that I haven’t seen in MANY moons (I dare not count them out!) is sitting behind me in one of the boxes above. We chatted a bit and caught up via text. What are the chances? Surreal.
And then, the end of the game arrives (WE WON!!) and the usher motions for us to wait. There is one more surprise left on this surreal day…..the usher has collected a practice puck for my dear BFF. If she was giddy before, she was now over the moon. (Seriously, she showed it to everyone on our walk back to the parked car!)
It was an awesome evening, celebrating a beautiful soul’s new chapter in her life. Now, not only does she have the memories (and pictures) of the fourth row seats, she has a puck.
Yes - very surreal.
Moments with your BFF and watching her act like a five year-old in a candy store.
DELIGHTFUL for my soul.
A day earlier, we had other exciting news, which may not be public knowledge just yet, but it was worthy of a celebration. And then a hockey game falls into our lap.
My BFF and I go to one of our favourite pubs in the city. Now, Prohibition is no typical pub. It specializes in a gastronomic menu. It’s brilliant and a perfect way to start our celebratory evening out. Great start, right? A couple of glasses of wine a tasty Buckingham Blanket and off we go to the ACC.
AND WE FIND OUT WE ARE IN THE FOURTH ROW from the ICE!! It was surreal. Seeing the Leafs and the Senators playing that close. They seemed stronger and faster somehow!
AND it was an amazing game. Seconds into the game gloves are dropped and a fight breaks out. My BFF is giddy beside me. Between periods we chatted with the usher and the gents beside us. I post a couple of pictures to Facebook only to find out that an old friend from high school, that I haven’t seen in MANY moons (I dare not count them out!) is sitting behind me in one of the boxes above. We chatted a bit and caught up via text. What are the chances? Surreal.
And then, the end of the game arrives (WE WON!!) and the usher motions for us to wait. There is one more surprise left on this surreal day…..the usher has collected a practice puck for my dear BFF. If she was giddy before, she was now over the moon. (Seriously, she showed it to everyone on our walk back to the parked car!)
It was an awesome evening, celebrating a beautiful soul’s new chapter in her life. Now, not only does she have the memories (and pictures) of the fourth row seats, she has a puck.
Yes - very surreal.
Moments with your BFF and watching her act like a five year-old in a candy store.
DELIGHTFUL for my soul.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Moments D300: Turning Point. Endings, Beginnings and Questions
Today was the end of a beautiful weekend. I dragged my feet when it came time for me to leave. I simply did not want to go. The peace, the beauty, the friendship and laughter. It was hard to say goodbye.
But, it was time to head back to home and the reality of homework and the coming work week. I arrived home about 3 hours later than I had planned, but the extra stolen time was well appreciated.
About an hour away from home, I received a phone call from someone who was once very, very important to me. We had many beautiful memories, but we also shared quite a few dark ones as well. It felt like a constant struggle between us, and like the lyrics of a song I heard today, it felt like he loved me for everything he hated about me. It was complicated at the best of times….and here he was, again, in a dark place again. For him, it was time to end the ending of what was left of our relationship.
I took the time to hear him out, for I understood his frustration, pain and fears. I’ve been where is was. It can be incredibly hard on one’s heart to let go, but harder still to hang on. He needed closure to move on.
Will I miss him in my life? Yes. Of course. People that share important milestones in my life with me will always be a part of my memories. But I won’t lament the loss of this friend. I did that when we broke up. I was hoping we could find friendship again, but I understand why that can’t be. It’s okay. I have no real emotion about it (which is a little strange to me, but I’ve already gone through the grieving process) And frankly, with every ending is a new beginning. I’ve been on that journey now for some time. For me, his ending of endings only becomes my more solid beginning of beginnings.
So today, as I sit to write my 300th post on daily moments and how they make me smile, I realize it’s a perfect time to really reflect on my journey with words.
I look back over the past 300 posts with fondness. It was a new beginning for me. A journey to dig deeper and learn more about myself. I think I've learned a great deal about what I really want in life in these past 300 days. And, as mentioned earlier, I think what’s more important is that I have a much better handle on what I don’t want in my life as well. That, truly, is really the bigger revelation from my journey.
This blog, these words, have helped me find perspective. My written voice offers me a moment to self-assess every day. After all, coming up with special moments for 300 days in a row hasn't always been easy. It takes a moment to pause and reflect upon the day, and sometimes, I have to dig for that moment.
Today’s moment is the turning point. That moment where you realize you are on the right path. It’s like reliving the past, but from a future perspective. I have always believed that things happen for a reason, today, this turning point, makes me feel like I know that there was purpose in the lessons I've had over the past year. I'm more confident because of those lessons and taking the time to self-assess along the way has really opened my eyes to what I want and what I don’t want moving forward.
Today’s moment? Appreciating the depth of moments and what this process has given me. The moments that continue to surprise, entertain and offer perspective to my life. They also keep me questioning the world around me.
But, it was time to head back to home and the reality of homework and the coming work week. I arrived home about 3 hours later than I had planned, but the extra stolen time was well appreciated.
About an hour away from home, I received a phone call from someone who was once very, very important to me. We had many beautiful memories, but we also shared quite a few dark ones as well. It felt like a constant struggle between us, and like the lyrics of a song I heard today, it felt like he loved me for everything he hated about me. It was complicated at the best of times….and here he was, again, in a dark place again. For him, it was time to end the ending of what was left of our relationship.
I took the time to hear him out, for I understood his frustration, pain and fears. I’ve been where is was. It can be incredibly hard on one’s heart to let go, but harder still to hang on. He needed closure to move on.
Will I miss him in my life? Yes. Of course. People that share important milestones in my life with me will always be a part of my memories. But I won’t lament the loss of this friend. I did that when we broke up. I was hoping we could find friendship again, but I understand why that can’t be. It’s okay. I have no real emotion about it (which is a little strange to me, but I’ve already gone through the grieving process) And frankly, with every ending is a new beginning. I’ve been on that journey now for some time. For me, his ending of endings only becomes my more solid beginning of beginnings.
So today, as I sit to write my 300th post on daily moments and how they make me smile, I realize it’s a perfect time to really reflect on my journey with words.
I look back over the past 300 posts with fondness. It was a new beginning for me. A journey to dig deeper and learn more about myself. I think I've learned a great deal about what I really want in life in these past 300 days. And, as mentioned earlier, I think what’s more important is that I have a much better handle on what I don’t want in my life as well. That, truly, is really the bigger revelation from my journey.
This blog, these words, have helped me find perspective. My written voice offers me a moment to self-assess every day. After all, coming up with special moments for 300 days in a row hasn't always been easy. It takes a moment to pause and reflect upon the day, and sometimes, I have to dig for that moment.
Today’s moment is the turning point. That moment where you realize you are on the right path. It’s like reliving the past, but from a future perspective. I have always believed that things happen for a reason, today, this turning point, makes me feel like I know that there was purpose in the lessons I've had over the past year. I'm more confident because of those lessons and taking the time to self-assess along the way has really opened my eyes to what I want and what I don’t want moving forward.
Today’s moment? Appreciating the depth of moments and what this process has given me. The moments that continue to surprise, entertain and offer perspective to my life. They also keep me questioning the world around me.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Moments D251: New Beginnings
Today is the beginning of a New Year. The year started off being surrounded by a lot of love and positive energy. That feeling quickly disintegrated in the early hours of the morning when things became dark and complicated. But as I reflect upon it now, it was an evening that epitomized my entire year. This past year was filled with many highs and many lows. I was surrounded by love, light and adoration and other times I found myself in the deepest darkest hole. It is the roller coaster of life, or rather, it’s my roller coaster of life.
And so, as I reflect upon the year, these highs highs and low lows like I’ve never had before, one thing is for certain: I have gone deeper than I’ve ever been within myself. I have gone deeper with others than ever before. I’ve opened myself up to new types of people, new opportunities and new perspectives in life. I have grown leaps and bounds in the past 12 months. I can only imagine what another year will bring.
As I let 2012 drift into the darkness, I look forward to 2013 with fondness. The year started with a bang. It was like an explosion pushing me in a new direction. I now know it’s time to dig ever deeper. It’s time for new beginnings with the energies that the universe brings me and time to go after my dreams. I guess I should start to figure out what those dreams are!
Moments to pause and reflect.
Moments to dream new dreams.
And so, as I reflect upon the year, these highs highs and low lows like I’ve never had before, one thing is for certain: I have gone deeper than I’ve ever been within myself. I have gone deeper with others than ever before. I’ve opened myself up to new types of people, new opportunities and new perspectives in life. I have grown leaps and bounds in the past 12 months. I can only imagine what another year will bring.
As I let 2012 drift into the darkness, I look forward to 2013 with fondness. The year started with a bang. It was like an explosion pushing me in a new direction. I now know it’s time to dig ever deeper. It’s time for new beginnings with the energies that the universe brings me and time to go after my dreams. I guess I should start to figure out what those dreams are!
Moments to pause and reflect.
Moments to dream new dreams.
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